Been busy and it doesn't seem to be letting up
Good times first:
Went to sushi and to see Flogging Molly at Tempe Lake on St. Patty's with Bill
Went to Kabuki sushi and the Kings hockey game on Thursday
Went to the Tempe Marketplace for the first time on Saturday and ate..you guessed it...sushi at that Kabukis
I've got high As in supply chain management and english
Got an x-box with lots of games
Bill and I are closer than ever
Stresses:
Got a call from my mom on Friday that my grandmother (that raised me) is in serious mental decline
Having to confront said decline 4 times a day to call her to tell her to eat and try to explain time to her
Having to set my alarm to 3:41 AM (not 3:40 or 3:42 but 3:41), 10 AM, noon and 2:45 PM
Not sleeping and having nightmares about confusion when I do drift off temporarily
Not being able to take my meds to sleep because of the situation
Having to negotiate her long term care insurance
Having to be the go between for my mom and the doctor to make sure Gramms can get diagnosed properly for assisted living
Knowing that I will probably have to fly out to CA in the next two weeks for a week or so, despite a midterm and new class, to tour facilities
Major midterm in SCM on wednesday and the fact that my friend from class got into a bad car wreck 2 days ago, so he is depending on my notes as well
Starting a new psych class and lab on monday on top of the 2 classes I already have
Having to write a proposal report for business english by Tuesday
CRAVING CIGARETTES!!!!! Especially everytime I call CA
Oh yeah, my BP dropped to 87/63 regular on saturday and a one-timer of 66/33, fun, fun, fun, almost passed out and couldn't keep my eyes open, so the cardiologist stopped two meds and wants to see me on monday if it doesn't regulate to at least 100/75 (normal is 120/80).
The good news is that it seems to be helping but just the bare minimum.
Other people dye eggs for Easter, I am dying and stripping my hair. The clarifier is in now and it comes out at 6, Bill is going to dye it when he gets home tonight. Not gonna tell anyone what color it will be, it'll be a surprise, but it will be a big surprise.
Well guess I took a long enough break from homework and it felt good to just get everything out. No, I really don't want to talk about my gramms anymore than I already have, because it is hard enough to be the strong, point person for the family right now and still cohabitate her world of confusion without breaking down. I can't handle any sympathetic calls or eve speaking about it out loud unless its on a medical or logical basis devoid of emotion. Being stoic is the only way I can keep up the denial long enough to do the things I know I need to do. If I am silent for a while, it means that I am either really swamped or in Cali.
On a brighter note, I have almost finished creating three of the four chapters of study guides for the midterm and injured friend and I will soon see what my hair looks like minus the black. Other bright note, I love my hubby and he is such a champ through all of this, I couldn't do it without him. Thank God also for my furry babies that look at me with confusion and love when they see my sad, middle of the night moments. They are the best therapy. Despite the stresses, I still do feel positive about my life in general, because I know I have the love that I need to see me through, and for that I am truly blessed. Even if it is just a silent empathetic glance or helping with the household chores, I really appreciate it and am VERY grateful.
Went to sushi and to see Flogging Molly at Tempe Lake on St. Patty's with Bill
Went to Kabuki sushi and the Kings hockey game on Thursday
Went to the Tempe Marketplace for the first time on Saturday and ate..you guessed it...sushi at that Kabukis
I've got high As in supply chain management and english
Got an x-box with lots of games
Bill and I are closer than ever
Stresses:
Got a call from my mom on Friday that my grandmother (that raised me) is in serious mental decline
Having to confront said decline 4 times a day to call her to tell her to eat and try to explain time to her
Having to set my alarm to 3:41 AM (not 3:40 or 3:42 but 3:41), 10 AM, noon and 2:45 PM
Not sleeping and having nightmares about confusion when I do drift off temporarily
Not being able to take my meds to sleep because of the situation
Having to negotiate her long term care insurance
Having to be the go between for my mom and the doctor to make sure Gramms can get diagnosed properly for assisted living
Knowing that I will probably have to fly out to CA in the next two weeks for a week or so, despite a midterm and new class, to tour facilities
Major midterm in SCM on wednesday and the fact that my friend from class got into a bad car wreck 2 days ago, so he is depending on my notes as well
Starting a new psych class and lab on monday on top of the 2 classes I already have
Having to write a proposal report for business english by Tuesday
CRAVING CIGARETTES!!!!! Especially everytime I call CA
Oh yeah, my BP dropped to 87/63 regular on saturday and a one-timer of 66/33, fun, fun, fun, almost passed out and couldn't keep my eyes open, so the cardiologist stopped two meds and wants to see me on monday if it doesn't regulate to at least 100/75 (normal is 120/80).
The good news is that it seems to be helping but just the bare minimum.
Other people dye eggs for Easter, I am dying and stripping my hair. The clarifier is in now and it comes out at 6, Bill is going to dye it when he gets home tonight. Not gonna tell anyone what color it will be, it'll be a surprise, but it will be a big surprise.
Well guess I took a long enough break from homework and it felt good to just get everything out. No, I really don't want to talk about my gramms anymore than I already have, because it is hard enough to be the strong, point person for the family right now and still cohabitate her world of confusion without breaking down. I can't handle any sympathetic calls or eve speaking about it out loud unless its on a medical or logical basis devoid of emotion. Being stoic is the only way I can keep up the denial long enough to do the things I know I need to do. If I am silent for a while, it means that I am either really swamped or in Cali.
On a brighter note, I have almost finished creating three of the four chapters of study guides for the midterm and injured friend and I will soon see what my hair looks like minus the black. Other bright note, I love my hubby and he is such a champ through all of this, I couldn't do it without him. Thank God also for my furry babies that look at me with confusion and love when they see my sad, middle of the night moments. They are the best therapy. Despite the stresses, I still do feel positive about my life in general, because I know I have the love that I need to see me through, and for that I am truly blessed. Even if it is just a silent empathetic glance or helping with the household chores, I really appreciate it and am VERY grateful.