Jan 10, 2012 18:00
I noticed last week that I've been saying and thinking a lot of negative things about myself. Pete says something nice to me, and I say, "You shouldn't say that." Or I make a mistake and say, "I'm an idiot." The thing is, I didn't used to do this. I don't know when I started, and I don't think I believed them at first. But I'm finding that the more I say them, the more I do believe them, even if only a little. That's not good. I know I'm not an idiot, and I suppose I should believe my husband when he says nice things to/about me (wow, I couldn't even say that I do believe him. Hmm).
So, I'm trying to stop saying these things. When I realize what I've said, I stop and rephrase it to be more specific - "I wasn't paying attention," instead of, "I'm an idiot." It's hard, though. I hadn't realized just how many times I do this during the course of a day. And I'm still having a hard time not believing the bad things.
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