Crazeh daze...
Yeah I know the spelling is crap. But I am ok with it. Have all my limbs still attached and everything. Apparently grammer and spelling isn't as vital to everyday existence as people make it out to be :P
Today has been a bit of a mixed up time (just in case you hadn't noticed by the fact this is the third update today-though I suppose part of that is wanting to talk and there being no-one around to talk to...or at least no-one who can stand there and listen to me waffle at them. Pancake at them too).
Well I slept, then I woke up sad. Which just plain sucked, I mean I was supposed to wake up happy and relaxed and I just wanted to cry. Made worse when Reu and Rach then skyped me and I couldn't lift my mood up enough to join in with the insane rambling like normal. I was even started to feel a little irked, not to mention jealous that they could hang out and have fun whilst I was stuck on my own with work and stuff. But then Reu called me and we spoke one on one and I explained myself. I have issues with being around people when I'm upset. My mother has always made a big deal whenever I *was* upset or feeling depressed, making out that I was ruining the mood for everyone else. As such i get a massive urge to run away when i do get upset. So here I was trying to stop getting upset, too tired to really hide it and just feeling awkward. I haz ma issues. So. Now I finish off this weekend, then I have hand-in followed by house viewings on Monday with R&R. Things are moving forward.....is it wrong that I'm kind of glad for an excuse to miss celebrating with people from my course? they're nice people but we were never really mega close and I don't think I can stomach being around people drinking heavily and talking about the projects we now can do nothing about. No thanks.
J
Today has been a bit of a mixed up time (just in case you hadn't noticed by the fact this is the third update today-though I suppose part of that is wanting to talk and there being no-one around to talk to...or at least no-one who can stand there and listen to me waffle at them. Pancake at them too).
Well I slept, then I woke up sad. Which just plain sucked, I mean I was supposed to wake up happy and relaxed and I just wanted to cry. Made worse when Reu and Rach then skyped me and I couldn't lift my mood up enough to join in with the insane rambling like normal. I was even started to feel a little irked, not to mention jealous that they could hang out and have fun whilst I was stuck on my own with work and stuff. But then Reu called me and we spoke one on one and I explained myself. I have issues with being around people when I'm upset. My mother has always made a big deal whenever I *was* upset or feeling depressed, making out that I was ruining the mood for everyone else. As such i get a massive urge to run away when i do get upset. So here I was trying to stop getting upset, too tired to really hide it and just feeling awkward. I haz ma issues. So. Now I finish off this weekend, then I have hand-in followed by house viewings on Monday with R&R. Things are moving forward.....is it wrong that I'm kind of glad for an excuse to miss celebrating with people from my course? they're nice people but we were never really mega close and I don't think I can stomach being around people drinking heavily and talking about the projects we now can do nothing about. No thanks.
J