Thoughts
So I haven't really posted a whole lot in a while. Nothing that really said anything about my thoughts or feelings.
It's been aabout a month since I was officially diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I have had quite a bit of a roller coaster ride since then. I have had to fight my insurance for them to let me taket the medication that has actually been helping. I have been coming to terms that I will have good days and I will have bad days... It seems like the bad days outnumber the good most times. I am trying to come to terms with the fact that I will always be tired, but will occasionally have spurts that I have a decent amount of energy and can do alot. I am coming to terms with the fact that I will always hurt. There will be days that I hurt more. There will be days that I hurt less.
Having the Fibromyalgia has made me realize that I need to cherish the times that I do feel pretty ok. I need to take advantage of them and not waste them. I am realizing that I can't let life stop because I hurt, or am hurting more than normal. I am realizing that it's ok to cry. It's ok to cry when it hurts, cry when it gets to be too much, cry when I just feel like I can't go on.
The past few days I have felt like my damned bipolar is acting up again. I have gone from nearly elated to wanting to cry and being down, but as I understand it, that is the nature of the beast. The beast being Fibromyalgia.
I have been going through quite a few struggles recently, some of which are resoled. I have been having to fight with my insurance company to get my Lyrica approved for them to cover it. They finally did. Yesterday. After nearly a month of fighting with them. It took me and my doctor proving to them that Lyrica is the ONLY FDA approved medication for Fibro.
I've been having a flare up with my right neck and shoulder. All my trigger points and muscles are knotted up. There is really nothing that I can do for it the doctor said other than moist heat. He said that it is the Fibromyalgia acting up and it is probably stress induced. I just kinda laughed at him. I have been working on getting it loosened up, but nothing is really helping. He wanted me to wait a week, and I will, but then I think I will call and ask for some muscle relaxants or something...
I've been trying to get ready for Thanksgiving, but I feel like it is being overshadowed by so much. There is so much going on with my family health wise and then it seems like the retail people are just skipping over Thanksgiving and running straight to Christmas. It really annoys me. I am excited for Christmas to get here too, but we need to celebrate the holidays as they get here.
The day after Thankgiving I normally put up my Christmas tree. I won't be this year. I will actually be in Canada visiting with my brother and his family. I can't wait. Lots of my family are going up. I can't wait at all.
I've got this overwhelming sense of doom and gloom right now that I can't shake.. It could be because I am having a aforementioned bad day and counldn;t get to sleep last night.
I was having a really good day yesterday, and had lots of energy, so I did a whole lot of house work, baked 2 cakes, went shopping, and did laundry... I probably over did it, which is making me have a bad day today. I was just so happy to have energy, so I used it...
I need to bake a cake or something for my grams and I can't think of what to make...
I need to make rice stuffing tonight... I can't wait... It's yummy...
It's been aabout a month since I was officially diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I have had quite a bit of a roller coaster ride since then. I have had to fight my insurance for them to let me taket the medication that has actually been helping. I have been coming to terms that I will have good days and I will have bad days... It seems like the bad days outnumber the good most times. I am trying to come to terms with the fact that I will always be tired, but will occasionally have spurts that I have a decent amount of energy and can do alot. I am coming to terms with the fact that I will always hurt. There will be days that I hurt more. There will be days that I hurt less.
Having the Fibromyalgia has made me realize that I need to cherish the times that I do feel pretty ok. I need to take advantage of them and not waste them. I am realizing that I can't let life stop because I hurt, or am hurting more than normal. I am realizing that it's ok to cry. It's ok to cry when it hurts, cry when it gets to be too much, cry when I just feel like I can't go on.
The past few days I have felt like my damned bipolar is acting up again. I have gone from nearly elated to wanting to cry and being down, but as I understand it, that is the nature of the beast. The beast being Fibromyalgia.
I have been going through quite a few struggles recently, some of which are resoled. I have been having to fight with my insurance company to get my Lyrica approved for them to cover it. They finally did. Yesterday. After nearly a month of fighting with them. It took me and my doctor proving to them that Lyrica is the ONLY FDA approved medication for Fibro.
I've been having a flare up with my right neck and shoulder. All my trigger points and muscles are knotted up. There is really nothing that I can do for it the doctor said other than moist heat. He said that it is the Fibromyalgia acting up and it is probably stress induced. I just kinda laughed at him. I have been working on getting it loosened up, but nothing is really helping. He wanted me to wait a week, and I will, but then I think I will call and ask for some muscle relaxants or something...
I've been trying to get ready for Thanksgiving, but I feel like it is being overshadowed by so much. There is so much going on with my family health wise and then it seems like the retail people are just skipping over Thanksgiving and running straight to Christmas. It really annoys me. I am excited for Christmas to get here too, but we need to celebrate the holidays as they get here.
The day after Thankgiving I normally put up my Christmas tree. I won't be this year. I will actually be in Canada visiting with my brother and his family. I can't wait. Lots of my family are going up. I can't wait at all.
I've got this overwhelming sense of doom and gloom right now that I can't shake.. It could be because I am having a aforementioned bad day and counldn;t get to sleep last night.
I was having a really good day yesterday, and had lots of energy, so I did a whole lot of house work, baked 2 cakes, went shopping, and did laundry... I probably over did it, which is making me have a bad day today. I was just so happy to have energy, so I used it...
I need to bake a cake or something for my grams and I can't think of what to make...
I need to make rice stuffing tonight... I can't wait... It's yummy...