Phone, unfiltered.[Eridan's been pretty confident about this whole new leaf he's been turning. He's got a moirail, a potential matesprit... Everything. Hell, he's even sure about this whole human homecoming dance thing...Doesn't care about filters for this because hey, he wants the whole world to hear his declarations
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...when were you going to tell me, Eridan?
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Well Fef... I was gonna be tellin' you, wanted to wait until I proved I was changed an' things weren't just startin' up, to avoid hurtin' both a' us...wanted you to hear it when you knew I wouldn't be pullin' such a stunt again.
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[And she breaks down crying again.]
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[He's starting to cry too.]
I'm sorry...I couldn't bear to be seein' your face all ruined when you were so happy with how things were goin'...
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Jegus, Eridan, I - I should hate you for it but I just feel sad. Reely sad.
I was happy. I was reely glubbing happy. And I meant it when I said I believed in what you were trying to do, but now I feel like I can't tell what's a lie and what's true, and that's the part that hurts the worst...
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[his voice sounds sullen, defeated, even. He's sobbing, too... He was trying so hard, after all, and that one little mistake fucked it all up].
If you're wantin' to be hatin' me right now... go ahead. I feel like a real douchefish for keepin' that from you I just didn't know how to go about tellin' you. Especially where I'm from on the timeline You were hatin' me an' here... you weren't... I fully expected you to. I guess I got too wrapped up in takin' that for granted. Was mullin' over it several times an'...
I'm just...It's not like I didn't get away with what I did, either. I got killed. An since I don't have my recouperacoonEverythin' I did keeps replayin' in my nightmares night in an' night out, me feelin' every bit a' pain I dealt and was dealt...
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I can't find it in my aquatic bladder to just suddenly swim from one side of the quadrants to the other. I feel like a dead fish just floating around uselessly, waiting for some other seabeast to make it its lunch.
I know you die after I do, back home. But Jegus, I...
I'd been trying to make the best of things here because I thought there was still some glubbing hope back there. And I - maybe I'm the moron here for thinking that sea change of yours was because you maybe knew there was something to hope for, too...
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[He just.. doesn't really know what to do anymore. He's upset her before, yes, but never like this.]
I'm really tryin' to make a new start here, Fef... I'm still tryin' to find hope. Even if when we all go back an' nothin ends up changin'... I want to be makin' a second chance...I want this to go right. Wanted this to go right especially after seein' how happy you an' I were for that short while.
I know you can't be forgivin' what I've done an' all... but...
this changin' thing is harder than it looks you fuckin' said it yourself. I'm hopin' you've still got some faith in me...
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...but right now what I need more than anything else is time. I've got a lot of thoughts swimming around in my thinkpan and I need to sort all of it out.
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If it's time you're wantin'...I'll be givin' it to you.
If you need me...well... you know.
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