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Latest news, not that there's much of it

Jul 15, 2006 06:48

Well, another lengthy period has passed since I last posted here. Since not much changes on a daily basis around here it would be pointless to post much more often (ok, I'm rationalizing ( Read more... )

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Oh, Fuck the BACKPACK! nightcircle July 15 2006, 17:51:36 UTC

What a freaking baby I used to be! I remember coming back from the Riverwalk one day with stuffed animals from Disney, a Claudia tote bag and good food in my stomach and thinking, "We could have spent this money on a chair instead." I think I even said it out loud and got the famous John eye roll, the one that said, "Sure, so we can sit on a chair and do nothing with the whole of life and the city out there. You're fucked in the head." And I remember thinking that you two would throw away everything on the intangible and that there would never be anything to show for it. Except memory and experience and the forging of alliances. That part escaped me back then. It doesn't now.

Re: Oh, Fuck the BACKPACK! misterjohn July 16 2006, 06:09:35 UTC

No, I don't think it does escape you now. Let's face it, your entire mode of life up to that time was the exact opposite of what you were being asked to live in NO. I understand T's comment about not being in an NO sort of place anymore (and I know you're in the same boat) but the place served our purposes. Yes, you drove me absolutely insane back then but I'm pretty sure I didn't make you feel all warm and fuzzy either. The point was, everyone was going through massive life altering stuff, during which it's sort of hard to make nice-nice. Hell, by the time we were ready to make nice-nice, T was having his breakdown, over chicken-fried steak, no less. :)

Re: Oh, Fuck the BACKPACK! wewelsburg July 16 2006, 16:26:01 UTC

Er, if "nice-nice" was present during or shortly after chicken fried steak, you wouldn’t have moved out.

Or is moving out better, thus "nicer", than the option of hanging about until all three of killed each other? :-) (Plausible)

Re: Oh, Fuck the BACKPACK! misterjohn July 17 2006, 05:57:23 UTC

Actually, nice-nice was beginning while you were raining on your meal. That's why M and I looked at each other in wonder when it began, because that *was* nice-nice. That's why I'd have lunch with M from time to time after the move out, because we were as friendly as we were going to get without going through some major, in-depth discussions and that wasn't going to happen while I was still angry with you. In fact, for my part, it didn't happen really until I moved over to the Westgate Anus.

Re: Oh, Fuck the BACKPACK! wewelsburg July 17 2006, 06:06:57 UTC

After the fun and fireworks of _CLear & Present Danger_ night I had no desire to speak to or even see you again, which I still marvel at, even now. There wasn't a "nice nice" bone in my body at that point.

Had Mina been not been there during that time, having lunch with you and all that, that might have been that. I probably would have moved, come to think of it. I was pretty close to leaving Mina and moving anyway.

Re: Oh, Fuck the BACKPACK! nightcircle July 17 2006, 19:46:38 UTC

Whoa! You were still thinking of leaving me after John moved out of the Ponalba? You didn't tell me that or I might have been the one cryin' into the chicken fried steak. EEEK!

Re: Oh, Fuck the BACKPACK! wewelsburg July 18 2006, 15:34:10 UTC

Please bear in mind that I had already hurt one person by forcing something that wasn't working. I sure as hell wasn't going to do that to you. Better to leave you at that point than prolong the suffering.

So, I spent a couple of months working out in my head and heart whether or not this was just a particularly painful phase, or writing on the wall. The rest is history.

Re: Oh Fuck, the Frienship!!! misterjohn July 18 2006, 05:51:06 UTC

Yep, I'd say that quitting time was upon us all. As it stood, without the break, things could very well be different today. The fact was, the Frank and open heated discussions were not going to take place with all of us still trying to live with the Don't Go There's and, for me, those weren't about to drop until I had some space to work out exactly what those were. Also, to be honest, I didn't have a clue what you had in your head at that point. I felt that you'd brought in this girl who started out ok and then turned into Melissa Part II and I wasn't in the mood to cater to it. You were also diving head first, both of you, into a philosophy and organization you wouldn't even discuss openly and completely. You, as I saw it then, were making even bigger changes than just moving to New Orleans and I had had enough of a change and needed to regroup before I was going to be interested in anything but what was comfortable. And let's face it, that Apratment and friendship was anything but comfortable in those days ( ... )

Re: Oh Fuck, the Frienship!!! wewelsburg July 18 2006, 15:39:08 UTC

The running joke in _Buffy_ is the current "big bad" (sometimes, what was thought to be the "big" was actually the "little", but I digress). The "big bad" for me during that era was "Happily Ever After". It doesn't, shouldn't, and will never exist. What I needed to learn was Xeper & Remanifest, and that took a while.

Re: Oh Fuck, the Frienship!!! misterjohn July 19 2006, 06:04:39 UTC

Funny, I'm pretty sure we were all in the land of make believe on this one. Yeah, we'll move to New Orleans and everything will be perfect, all three of us being all coven-y and stuff. I can mock it now because I can see just how simple that notion was. Simple as in short bus simple.
Man, when they say BM is dangerous, some people just don't know the half of it. :)

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