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[misterjohn]

Well, another lengthy period has passed since I last posted here. Since not much changes on a daily basis around here it would be pointless to post much more often (ok, I'm rationalizing

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Re: Oh Fuck, the Frienship!!!

[misterjohn]

Yep, I'd say that quitting time was upon us all. As it stood, without the break, things could very well be different today. The fact was, the Frank and open heated discussions were not going to take place with all of us still trying to live with the Don't Go There's and, for me, those weren't about to drop until I had some space to work out exactly what those were. Also, to be honest, I didn't have a clue what you had in your head at that point. I felt that you'd brought in this girl who started out ok and then turned into Melissa Part II and I wasn't in the mood to cater to it. You were also diving head first, both of you, into a philosophy and organization you wouldn't even discuss openly and completely. You, as I saw it then, were making even bigger changes than just moving to New Orleans and I had had enough of a change and needed to regroup before I was going to be interested in anything but what was comfortable. And let's face it, that Apratment and friendship was anything but comfortable in those days.
As I see it now, you had already made these alterations in your head and you were making them your reality. The fact that no one else, or at least I, wasn't right there on the same page must have frustrated the shit out of you. I know it did me. But, and this is the big but, I wasn't in the same head place and I wasn't about to convert on anyone's say so until I'd decided that that was where I wanted to be, regardless of who was letting me know about it. From my perspective, you were asking for a leap of faith into something (accepting M as Of Us, accepting the ToS as a good thing) before I'd pundered it completely. Especially because all I could see of M was that she was insecure (sorry M but you know this is how I felt) in a very Melissa way and the ToS didn't sound like great stuff to me because I hadn't heard much about why it was so important to you and what it was really up to behind the curtain, a la Wizard of Oz.
Yes, we've discussed these issues time and again, and resolved them. But, it's useful, I think, to bring them back into the light from time to time to punder again for meanings and points missed or overlooked.

Re: Oh Fuck, the Frienship!!!

[wewelsburg]

The running joke in _Buffy_ is the current "big bad" (sometimes, what was thought to be the "big" was actually the "little", but I digress). The "big bad" for me during that era was "Happily Ever After". It doesn't, shouldn't, and will never exist. What I needed to learn was Xeper & Remanifest, and that took a while.

Re: Oh Fuck, the Frienship!!!

[misterjohn]

Funny, I'm pretty sure we were all in the land of make believe on this one. Yeah, we'll move to New Orleans and everything will be perfect, all three of us being all coven-y and stuff. I can mock it now because I can see just how simple that notion was. Simple as in short bus simple.
Man, when they say BM is dangerous, some people just don't know the half of it. :)