Just Because Part 1
THERE ALWAYS A REASON BEHIND
They used to be inseparable. Next door pals and childhood friends. Both being the youngest in the family made them the best of friends.
But as usual, life is not something that anyone can predict. And who you falling in love with are also something you cannot plan ahead.
So when Seohyun realized that she had fallen in love with her best friend, she could only keep that to herself. Because the so called best friend might not had the same feeling, since he seemed to enjoy his bachelor life.
Kyuhyun, with his angelic voice and evil smirk, had becoming the most wanted boyfriend. Regardless his player status and heartbreaker records, many girls still wanted to be his. Even if that was only for one day.
She knew that he kissed hundreds of girls, and many were not a chaste kiss. He made out with a quite bunch of young women, and few were almost carried away.
But she didn’t not know if any of that had been more than a second base. It was a dilemma for her anyway to ask, though she knew if she was asking he might answer that truthfully.
Because she was one person from who that he was not hiding his truth self. He was not a flirty young man as anyone saw at the outside. But a care, loving, nice, and real Kyuhyun.
And also because she was the only person that he hugged at night. When he climbed to her bedroom without their parents know. And slipped to her bed without even asking for permission. Then pulled her body to him closely and tucked his head in her hair until both of them sleeping peacefully.
She asked him once, when their sleep over was still innocent, why he did that. “I don’t really know. I only know that I sleep better when you’re with me.” And that time, she just shrugged her head and snuggled back to his chest.
She asked him twice, when both went to college - with him one year her senior -, if that would be awkward since both were older. He just shrugged his head and put her head under his chin. “I could not sleep well last year, Seohyunnie.”
And since she saw herself the bangs under his eyes, she gave up and let him climbed to her dorm bed. Luckily she was given a smaller room so she could be by herself and no one would question why he always slipped into her bed.
She did not asked however, three months ago, when he thought she was already asleep, why he kissed her hair, her eye lids, and her nose, before snuggled to her with trace of tears that she knew was in his cheeks because her hair was wet in the morning.
And why, in the morning after that, he slipped away before she was awake. And most importantly why he made a scene with Seungyeon very implicitly at the park in campus on the same afternoon.
She knew he was a player, but she never saw it before how he kissed a girl. How his lips kind of melting with his partner’s lips. Or how his hand sneaked into the blouse of the girl and kneading softly. Or how the girl moaned because of his penetration.
She never saw it because he seemed to always checking out to where she was before he did such pervert action. Or that what she was thinking before, because she thought he was respect her that much.
While she asked herself what had changed him like that, she also admitted to herself that what he did was really break her heart. Because she was crying that afternoon in a secluded area at the park.
And realized that she was actually head over heels with her best friend, who in return might not see her as more than his best friend, his dongsaeng and his childhood friend.
So she started to distance herself from him. She changed her schedule so she would not see him at campus. Being a tutor, she had granted access to the schedule of students. She went home early and put ‘do not disturb’ sign at the door and locked her window while pretend she had been sleeping when she her the soft knock at both door and window.
He texted several times and she could imagine he was whining, “Seohyunnie, why you locked the window, don’t you care that your oppa could not sleep?” She texted back while tears flowing freely, “Oppa, you know how I was when I have school tasks to do. Perhaps I tutoring too many students, but I was tired very easily this day.”
The first two weeks after that incident, he seemed to buy in the excuse. But on the fifteenth day, she went back only to find that he was already sleeping at her bed. While she wondered how he could pass her supervisor, he had woken up and pulled her to his arm.
And since she was trying to make her changed feeling to him not too obvious, she let him sneaked his head in her hair and hugged her tightly as usual. And when she thought he was asleep, she was then crying softly.
The morning after his comeback to her bed, he was not leaving for a while. Not even when he felt her stirring. And he pulled her even tighter. Until she protested. “Oppa, I cannot breathe”
And yet again, on the afternoon, she saw a glimpse and heard people buzzing about a new girl he made out so vigorously.
So she learned how to close her eyes and her ears. Yet every night he came to her bed, he was hugging her more and more tightly, and sometimes, when he thought she was asleep, he kissed her hair, her eye lids, and her nose. And then when she heard his steady breathing that signed her that he was asleep, she sobbing silently.
Until yesterday, when she brokenhearted again because she saw he made out heavily with one of her seniors (so that’s how he get her key), sneaked his hand not only under the girl blouse but also under the girl’s skirt, she finally gave up on being a calm and nice Seohyunnie.
She came with her friends to the summer party and drank few soju. And since she had never have more than two glassed before, she got drunk easily and impulsively did a sexy dance on the table in the middle of the party.
She was so drunk that she enjoyed being watched and cheered by many, most are boys her seniors, and obediently follow the audience's requests to loosen up her sweater and threw it out, leaving her with only small tank top and her tight skinny jeans.
One of her senior was just only joined her in the table and was grinding to her closely, when a hand hastily grabbed the guy and pulled her down from the table while shoved her sweater to her. She was starting to scream at the intruder when she saw a familiar pair of eyes.
“Put this.” He said to her. “I'll bring you home”. She was in rage. How dare he came here and interrupted her fun? She never interrupted his. But he was so strong, much much strong than her, and even stronger that any boy there.
He dragged her home to his apartment, pulled her hair when she threw up, brought her a set of oversize shirt and boxer, his shirt and boxer, and hugged her tightly when she trembled.
And that was the first time he kissed her hair, her eyelids, and her nose when she was awake. Maybe because he thought that the next morning she would forget.
But she didn’t.
So in the morning she’s gone before he woke up. Put his shirt and boxer in the laundry basin and left a note at his pillow. ‘Oppa, thank you.”
She did not stop there, however.
She packed her essential stuffs and went to her college advisor and asking for some break while promised that she would still submit her works remotely. She drove home at noon.
When he came to her dorm that night, felt a bit giddy because of her simple note, he found her bed still tidy and her pink luggage was gone. And tears were flowing free without he even realized when he hugged her pillow closely.
That was when he knew that his actions the last few years were finally caught at her. But not the way he wanted to.