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I read livejournal almost everyday, but I realized that I never actually post anything. I thought I'd try and start now, and besides I wanted to let people know what's going on with me.
I'm on a leave of absence from RIT, but this time I'm not coming back. I've decided that RIT really isn't the place for me. This would have been my fourth year here, and I'm still technically second year in my major. Since I switched from Photo to graphic design I had to go back and do a lot of different freshman level classes. I feel like I'm not getting anywhere here, like I'm stuck and I can't move forward. But it's more than just that... I'm not happy here. Although I love art and design I'm just not excited anymore. I'm not excited by what I do, I'm not happy with the work I produce. I just don't seem to have that drive.
When I changed from photo to graphic design in my second year, I briefly contemplated leaving RIT all together. I decided to stay because I had made a life here. I had the house, Lily, Jordan and all my friends. I was happy with my life here. I tabled my other ideas, one of which was going to culinary school, because I was afraid to leave, afraid to change things. Well, although I'm still afraid I want to move forward now. I guess I'm finally ready to let go of things and follow my heart wherever it takes me.
So in the fall I'm going to culinary school. I've been looking into quite a few different schools, mostly in new york city but also in san francisco and a few other places. (For those of you that don't know, san francisco is only about an hour away from my parents house.) I'm planning on visiting a few schools hopefully and then making my final decision from there.
I'm nervous, and of course I'm sad to be leaving all of you guys here in Rochester. But I'm also excited. I feel like this is the first time in my life I'm really going to do what I want, without holding myself back for any reason.
I'm on a leave of absence from RIT, but this time I'm not coming back. I've decided that RIT really isn't the place for me. This would have been my fourth year here, and I'm still technically second year in my major. Since I switched from Photo to graphic design I had to go back and do a lot of different freshman level classes. I feel like I'm not getting anywhere here, like I'm stuck and I can't move forward. But it's more than just that... I'm not happy here. Although I love art and design I'm just not excited anymore. I'm not excited by what I do, I'm not happy with the work I produce. I just don't seem to have that drive.
When I changed from photo to graphic design in my second year, I briefly contemplated leaving RIT all together. I decided to stay because I had made a life here. I had the house, Lily, Jordan and all my friends. I was happy with my life here. I tabled my other ideas, one of which was going to culinary school, because I was afraid to leave, afraid to change things. Well, although I'm still afraid I want to move forward now. I guess I'm finally ready to let go of things and follow my heart wherever it takes me.
So in the fall I'm going to culinary school. I've been looking into quite a few different schools, mostly in new york city but also in san francisco and a few other places. (For those of you that don't know, san francisco is only about an hour away from my parents house.) I'm planning on visiting a few schools hopefully and then making my final decision from there.
I'm nervous, and of course I'm sad to be leaving all of you guys here in Rochester. But I'm also excited. I feel like this is the first time in my life I'm really going to do what I want, without holding myself back for any reason.