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I HATE EXPECTATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not only am in being compared to my season last year, but now im being compared to another person... a freshman......... it hasn't even been one week yet and the coaches are all over me- "uh that's not too good" "do you really want to be here?" ughh! i just want them stop talking to me, cuz im not having fun with track right now
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well now i feel a lot better.. i had a good talk with my dad, and now it feels like a weight has been lifted off my chest.. i know i can be completely honest with him, cuz he has to love me, and he can tell when im not telling him the truth about how im feeling, and he knows he can ask me certain things he know i might not want to answer cuz he knows i have to love him.
im just so tired of being expected to everything right
and when i don't, being made to feel that i can't do anything right
running in the rain today was very refreshing though, now that i think about it.
i dunno, maybe i just need to be more positive... tomorrow is a HALF FRIDAY!!
see ya tomorrow!! rebo
(ugh, one more negative thought, monday is valentine's day... one more year that i'll be alone.. who wants to join my club??)
not only am in being compared to my season last year, but now im being compared to another person... a freshman......... it hasn't even been one week yet and the coaches are all over me- "uh that's not too good" "do you really want to be here?" ughh! i just want them stop talking to me, cuz im not having fun with track right now
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well now i feel a lot better.. i had a good talk with my dad, and now it feels like a weight has been lifted off my chest.. i know i can be completely honest with him, cuz he has to love me, and he can tell when im not telling him the truth about how im feeling, and he knows he can ask me certain things he know i might not want to answer cuz he knows i have to love him.
im just so tired of being expected to everything right
and when i don't, being made to feel that i can't do anything right
running in the rain today was very refreshing though, now that i think about it.
i dunno, maybe i just need to be more positive... tomorrow is a HALF FRIDAY!!
see ya tomorrow!! rebo
(ugh, one more negative thought, monday is valentine's day... one more year that i'll be alone.. who wants to join my club??)