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We'll I feel pretty proud of myself and really scared all at the same time today. I did exactly what I said I was going to do and give my husband an option either the drugs or his family. I told him it is his choice. I gave him until tonight to find a AA group to meet with and get his act togther, otherwise me and the girls will be moving out. I am proud of myself by letting him know how I feel about the drugs and other things he is doing that is destroying our family, but like I said I am scared. Scared that he will not change and not get treatment like has happened for years and I just turn my back and pretend that it is not happening and scared that I will have to move out and support the girls on my own again. It is so ironic that the time that we bought a new car several years ago was the same thing he started back on the drugs and I was left with a new car payment house payment, electric and groceries and on and on. I was making better money then too. I think he is testing me thinking that I will not move out due to finacially I need him there. The last time we were separated he only sent me 45 dollars a week for 2 kids and that was about 7 or 8 years ago. The girls were younger then, now they are teenagers their is so many things they need now. I know I am doing the right thing. I just don't know if he will do the right thing, and if he does how long it is going to last for. Anyways I am just writing in circles right now so I am going to close.