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I feel like making lists. CNY has been going fine - it's the same old story washed and repeated with every year but it's comforting to me and I enjoy meeting up with family because as we get busier, I see my cousins so rarely these days. They're older now, with Fiona being 11 and Twistie (Andre) being 9. We went to the playground and sat under the rungs and talked. That was the best moment for me, honestly. We played alot but we've never really any serious conversations because kids prefer to run screaming around a playground rather than having Serious Conversations. It's really nice that they're older and more mature now and I feel like instead of loving them because they're my cousins, they're really developing their own individual personalities and I'm finding out something new about them. They told me their crushes which made me giggle and they kept asking me who my crush was, to which I just laughed some more. Kids, they take things so seriously! I was probably the same way at 11 but not at the age of 16, I feel so much older and wiser that I remember fondly how I was at 11. It seems like a game now but at 11, it was Serious Stuff. Haha. So, yea, I enjoyed that. Andre/Twistie has a crush on a girl called FAITH which made me giggle for Obvious Reasons. I promised not to tell their parents and I don't intend too. Haha, but it was very amusing. They're surprisingly open which is cool. Crushes are not nearly taboo in their books.
Anyway, like I said. Fiona told me that I didn't seem like a grown-up to her. That's how they've thought of me for the past few years when I stopped playing pokemon with them. But, now, they sort of regard themselves as being grown-up as well even though they're obviously not. Haha. But, yea, she told me I reminded her of being 14 which is how I feel feel. I cannot believe I will be 17 this year - that's insane. Where have the years in between gone? It is a strange sensation for an age to be forced on you when you haven't felt the years yet.
Back to lists. There is a surprisingly large amount of things I have to do by this week which is %*%$%**%* because I would prefer to bum around. Bah. I suppose this is my own fault for bumming around the weeks before CNY and letting things slide. I like having my entire life in ORDER and I realise that makes me sound like some sort of control freak. But, yea, one little black spot on the horizon can ruin the whole sky. For me, anyway.
1. Type out history notes
2. Study for history test
3. Study for econs test
4. Math
5. Finish up class website
6. Valentine's Day stuff
7. Sort thoughts out * (maybe this should go on top of the list, lol)
I am not sure if I'm going to Wennie's house on Friday because I might be going to JB...and because I am dying to watch Garden State but I'd rather it in the cinema. (But there is always the possibility that it won't ever make it here). We'll see. I have props for Drama!feste on Saturday after which Hanyin and I are going to make dogtags. I need to find a day to go to Orchad/Cityhall to buy presents, window-shop (because I am sadly broke) and do all the things I need to do but haven't sorted out in my head.
Ew. I feel so messy now. And UNPRODUCTIVE. *%*$ %*$%&*$% *(
This has been a horrid entry. It annoys me. It makes me feel messy, unproductive and incredibly annoyingly materialistic. It's really not like that. I liked the first part but it all went downhill after I started talking about LISTS. SIGH.
I like lying down on my bed and thinking of sky and love and good things. That is when I like my room best.
Anyway, like I said. Fiona told me that I didn't seem like a grown-up to her. That's how they've thought of me for the past few years when I stopped playing pokemon with them. But, now, they sort of regard themselves as being grown-up as well even though they're obviously not. Haha. But, yea, she told me I reminded her of being 14 which is how I feel feel. I cannot believe I will be 17 this year - that's insane. Where have the years in between gone? It is a strange sensation for an age to be forced on you when you haven't felt the years yet.
Back to lists. There is a surprisingly large amount of things I have to do by this week which is %*%$%**%* because I would prefer to bum around. Bah. I suppose this is my own fault for bumming around the weeks before CNY and letting things slide. I like having my entire life in ORDER and I realise that makes me sound like some sort of control freak. But, yea, one little black spot on the horizon can ruin the whole sky. For me, anyway.
1. Type out history notes
2. Study for history test
3. Study for econs test
4. Math
5. Finish up class website
6. Valentine's Day stuff
7. Sort thoughts out * (maybe this should go on top of the list, lol)
I am not sure if I'm going to Wennie's house on Friday because I might be going to JB...and because I am dying to watch Garden State but I'd rather it in the cinema. (But there is always the possibility that it won't ever make it here). We'll see. I have props for Drama!feste on Saturday after which Hanyin and I are going to make dogtags. I need to find a day to go to Orchad/Cityhall to buy presents, window-shop (because I am sadly broke) and do all the things I need to do but haven't sorted out in my head.
Ew. I feel so messy now. And UNPRODUCTIVE. *%*$ %*$%&*$% *(
This has been a horrid entry. It annoys me. It makes me feel messy, unproductive and incredibly annoyingly materialistic. It's really not like that. I liked the first part but it all went downhill after I started talking about LISTS. SIGH.
I like lying down on my bed and thinking of sky and love and good things. That is when I like my room best.