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Wow its only 10:45 in the morning and i've managed to be crying for about 2 hours. I woke up this morning just fine until i got online and started talking to my mom and aunt.Im so worried about my baby. I know everyone says that i'll be a wonderful mother. but right now im honostly scared. Theres so many things that i wanted to go before i started a family. and one was to finish college and have a good job. Right now i dont have either. Im supposed to start working for the state sometime but not all my paper work has come through and i dont know how much longer its gonna be. My mom and dad are going to make my carpayment this month bc Doozer has to pay his stupid ticket that he decided to get. I mean, sure we can make it on his income but its no the income that i ever really intended to raise a child on. When it rains it pours. Everyone thinks that their life is so bad, they should try living in my shoes. My moms looking for a house again for us, that way we'll just pay her 200.00 a month and the rest can go towards what we need to pay. My moms taking me to register for AWC on monday, she wants me to go full time which is a good idea, so i can get more classes out of the way. The CNA class is full but she said shes going to talk to the professor and make sure she lets me in. That way when the babys born i can work as a CNA until i finish my nursing. I feel like im running out of time, i have to grow up completely in about 6 months. Jill told me that she would always be there to babysit for me during my classes, and im pretty sure im gonna take her up on it. Theres not many people i would trust my baby with but i would her. My mom told me that if i wanted to go away for college next year, one option i have is to leave the baby w/ her until im finished. But i couldnt do that, i couldnt imagine anyone else being a mother to my baby accept for me. Talking to my aunt Debbie always makes me feel better. I always think i have it so bad until i talk to her and she makes me relize that everyone is behind me 100% no matter what choice i make:
Pooresgirl: so.....everything really will turn out good in the end melissa....you have to believe that and do your best...no one can do anymore than their best
MiSsLiSs4YoU: yeah thank you
me and my mom have been getting along great, shes the person i go to talk to most of the time now, she knows exactly what im going through bc it happend to her w/ me.
SoclWorkrWannabe: SMILE EVERYTHING WILL BE OK
Not very many people have such understanding moms that you can talk to about anything, and im lucky to have one.Im gonna go to my aunts, everyones going over there and were gonan talk about everything thats going on.
Pooresgirl: so.....everything really will turn out good in the end melissa....you have to believe that and do your best...no one can do anymore than their best
MiSsLiSs4YoU: yeah thank you
me and my mom have been getting along great, shes the person i go to talk to most of the time now, she knows exactly what im going through bc it happend to her w/ me.
SoclWorkrWannabe: SMILE EVERYTHING WILL BE OK
Not very many people have such understanding moms that you can talk to about anything, and im lucky to have one.Im gonna go to my aunts, everyones going over there and were gonan talk about everything thats going on.