I have no life...and no friends.. and im perfectly fine...

[missliss4you]

Ive gotten to the point now where i could give a shit less who likes me, and who my friends are. Ive went through my whole life trying to please everyone and making sure they like me, screw it. I'll never truely know who my real friends are, bc they tend to back stab me or talk shit. Everything was going great until last night when i went to get Tims icechest at Teras house for him. The only reason i got it was bc i knew he didnt want to see her, and Tera had been asking me before to take it to him bc she didnt want him at her house. So i got there and Teras mom was completely drunk and started calling me a whore telling me that i was " fucking him again" which is a complete lie. I left her house in tears. It pisses me off so bad that i cant be friends w/ someone that i feel so comfortable w/ without someone talking shit saying im doing stuff w/ him. I told her to shut up bc she didnt know what she was talking about, and who ever told her that was lying. So today i got online and Tim sent me the email that Tera sent him saying that i was disrespecting her mom and that i shouldnt have gotten the ice chest. The whole situation is pissing me off, especially when people tell me not to be friends w/ him. If 1/2 the people only knew what i've been through the past year and 1/2 with him, they would understand where im coming from and be happy for me that were friends. You only meet someone that you feel close with, and trust, and can talk to about anything once in a life time. I dont trust girls anymore, all they do is talk shit and start drama. I know that Jill's probably mad at me bc i tell her stuff about Danny, but if i was in her position then i would want to know. I told her today that i was just going to keep everything to myself bc its not even worth my getting in the middle of it. I have to baby sit all weekend, and house sit...ya go Mel. Doozer told me that he would babysit for me tonight if i wanted to go out, but i dont have any friends to go out with, so im probably just going to stay home with the Kids. I asked Rebecca if she wanted to do something since shes leaving in the morning, but she has to wake up early so she cant. I've givin up alot of things in the past 2 months and sometimes i wish that i wouldnt have. Well im going to go, im gonna start trying to write in here more. Write me back!
<3 MeL