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ohh mann..boys are seriously horrible..i should go lesbian or something because guys right now suck. well mainly just one and he always has but yet he always has a special place in my heart
the more i get to know about different guys though i come to realize they are all just trouble as well. so yeah jeff came home for 2 weeks on leave from the navy and it was probably the best 2 weeks i've ever spent with him (well the first time i've ever actually spent a full 2 weeks with him minus a like 2 of the days) we had a lot of fun i spent almost every night over there and we watched movies, played yahtzee and frackel, went bowling, laughed..all that good stuff. we only got into a few spats, nothing big. well the day he goes back to california i learn from one of his ex's that they hung out friday night (which happened to be one of the nights i wasnt with him and when his parents couldnt get ahold of him and they were calling me trying to figure out where he was) well this ex is his "psycho ex" as he calls her and swears up and down that they dont talk anymore that he's even thought about putting a restraining order against her. when i confront him about this he is stunned that i would even believe what she says since she's "psycho" but i dont know. i think he's just saying this becuz thats what he wants me to believe. he's talked about marriage and how he wants to move me out to california..but i just dont see doing that when i cant trust him! we've had so many problems in the past, he's put me through so much heartache..i just dont see me putting my heart on the line like that. so yeah guys suck and i wish they would just go away. i dont know what to do and i prolly never will. i dont think i will ever understand him. i just need to get away from him, its the only way i'll get over him and actually have a chance at being happy. so yeah that was my rant for the night...love you guys