When is it time to give up?

[missedglances]

I wish I could figure some of it out.  I don't know where I keep going wrong.  Other than, I keep doing what girls say they wish more guys did.  That, so far, has been the most obvious wrong thing to do.  For instance, there was a girl that I really liked...everything went well, everything clicked.  We made plans...between the time of making plans, and the time of plans coming to pass, she lost interest in me somehow.  I just found out she's dating someone else.  But, that was months ago.  Mostly, I blew it off, just as she blew me off.  It did sting finding out she's dating someone else, though (no time for me, because she's too busy with him, I guess).  So, on to a new girl...who has now taken to not answering or returning my calls when she used to call me and text me almost twice a day.  I'm not going to lie, I enjoyed the attention, but it was a fifty fifty thing...some days she texted first, some days I did, some times she called first, sometimes I did.  I have no idea what suddenly changed that, but I get the feeling that she is dating someone else.

I'm tired of getting roped in so easily.  I fall for girls that show interest in me, that say they want the same things I want...and yet, I have no idea how to get them to fall for me.  I see these scummy assholes with girls all the time, and those girls swear up and down they love the guys, they fight and carry on, but keep running back...I can't even get one to show up!  Is that what I should be looking for?  Someone who annoys me and who I'll fight with, but will sleep with me?  What kind of existence is that?  That doesn't sound like someone I want to be with for more than twenty minutes, let alone a lifetime.

I half want to tell the world to fuck off, I half want to just hear someone say they want me.