man =(
you would think that since i've played piano since i was 4 yrs. old that i would be able to at least play some jazz chords. or anything remotely jazz. but no it takes me like 10 minutes to come up with any chords that sound right. i played piano for 2 hrs. today, and i maybe got about 5 jazz progressions that sounded good. damn classical piano influence that i cant get out of my head. it's so depressing. i have declined so much in my piano skills since high school and the beginning of college. i dont know what the hell happened, but it pisses me off. i should be getting better. i need to practice more. argh. it sounds so good in my head, like jazz chords and stuff, and i remember songs, but when i try to play it there's nothing. i still really wanna form/be in a jazz/soul/r&b combined group one day, but if i cant even play jazz piano how is that ever gonna happen. i love the piano, i just dont know what happened to being able to actually play well. but i cant and wont give up, even if that means practicing everyday till i eat, breathe, and sleep jazz piano. i need inspiration.