Jun 07, 2011 11:12
Did that bother you when Jesus didn't answer the mother right away?
Yes, very much so, especially since she had prayed for him, and he had come for her. Then i realized that he must have been testing her to see just how faithful she was, and he was.
Has Jesus' silence in your life ever caused you to dig down deep to discover just how much faith you have? this time, more than ever!
What was the result of this mother's persistence? her daughter was healed.
What can you learn from her? be faithful...always.
I think in the past He tried this test on me. Being silent after i had called out to Him and he had provided and with that test i failed because i gave up. In this new situation He is teaching me and testing me with the very same things, and i know that i must hold tightly to my faith. He is teaching me patience and that i have to give everything to him because i cannot do it all on my own. This past situation was, in many ways, just like 2004, but i was faithful then and good came from that. However, after i was faithful i fell again, and i fell hard and for a year and a half...until i had nothing again and needed to put everything back into the Lord. When i did that i received one of the best gifts from God, my Josh. In this current situation i fell back into what i wanted and not what the Lord wanted for me, when it all fell apart as i knew it would and i needed it to, i prayed immediately and was content with the belief that God would get ALL of the glory from the situation. I prayed that good would come out of all of this pain and heartache for all parties involved. I cannot be someone else's happiness or save them, and now i realize that thats what i wanted and thats why most of it fell apart. My gift from God is not fully broken and through this situation it has and will continue to be strengthened, but my heart still aches for the one that is left out in the cold with no rhyme or reason. i kept saying that i just want this and i want that to happen so that everything will be OK again, but then i knew that i needed to stop saying "i want", and start asking "what do you want, Lord?!" i have given you to Him so that His good might continue to bless us all. You deserve to be happy but only the Lord can do that. I pray that you know that i still care about you and believe in you but i also pray that your heart is open to the Lord and what life he has to offer for you. I have ALWAYS believed that if you were on fire for the Lord no one could stop you..your personality lends to a passion that is unstoppable, just grab Him and go!! Thank you Lord Jesus for your love that sustains my soul.