yOu make me go CrAzAy// i HATE myself for lOving yOu...
okay i seriosuly hate "BIG" i have come to conclusion that he is just a jerk and a player.since that last episode with sarah...it has come to a new girl. her name is kayla. he met her at west hawk lake...that weekend he didnt come out jill. this is how it started, my mom was on the phone today with his mom and his mom was like BIG came up to me and said that jasmin (who is 12 or 13 years old) is mad or annoyed with him becuase wenever i come out he leaves their "group" and comes to me. and then when i leave he goes to them apparently...i never knew he hung out with them. and so then she feels that "our group" (i hate that word) isnt letting theirs in, when hello no wonder their group is fuckin 12year olds....IM 16 AND IM IN GRADE 11 DO I WANNA HANG OUT WITH SUMONE I CAN BABYSIT? UGH NO! i just had to get that out lol but anyways so now big's family is inviting them to the social and there all coming and im like wat the hell if sumone even makes me hang out with them i wont. i hate when parents get into shit like this and wen lil kids get all jealous and whiny i mean now u know why i dont let u in...k but ya so now he is prolly not gonna wanna dance with me for shure...he will be too preoccupied with all the girls hes playing.so and then his mom said that hes been having this kayla girl over and he lied to me. he said that he never met neone at west hawk, now maybe there just friends but i duno..u ahve to know him...and he didnt phone me cuz she was over. i just dont understand like why is he spending all this time with like 5 DIFFERNT girls when he claims he likes me...if only he knew that one of the reasons i broke up with ryan was for him! anwyas im going to POWER 8 BALL woohoo i get to see OUR LADY PEACE and other hawt bands:D its gonna be fab. so i went to bsb that was such a blast it was soo much fun. howie waved to me:d and brian came into my section he was on the stairs beside meeeeeeee and he threw a bouncy ball in our crowd! and then nick was tellin everyone to dance and get up and then he came to our side and pointed to our section and said beside u girls meaning our section cuz we literally ALL were standing it was awsome. met lots of ppl too. howie waved to me and alyssa becuz maybe 20mins after the concert me and my mom and ali were stopped at a red light and all of a sudden this huge blue bus stops beside us and i see howie in the nontinted part waving i was like omg me and my sis were like against the window waving and smiling=) it was greaat but i ddint get to see neone else cuz they were standing in the tinted part:( but ya and friday i went to amandas 16 partty on the river boat it was soo much fun=) I LOVE GRADE 11 ITS THE BEST THING EVER FOR FREIDNS!I HAVE ALL MY GRADE 9 FRIENDS BACK:d hahahha ya i had to get that out of me...i g2g now and do sum bio homework ill update sume more later.