kick in the ass
so last week was not exactly the best week of my life. things with Mylo came to a close which was for the best but still a drag and then i basically get a warning at work that management doesn't think i'm happy and that maybe i'm not right for my position any longer. well that came out of nowhere! it's true that i'm bored and after 2 years i would like a change but the things that they used as "backup" were not exactly valid points. they said things like i'm not cheerful enough, i'm moody and not very helpful. now this may be true to some extent at certain times of the month towards some of the idiots i work with but not with clients unless they are completely rude like hanging up on me and being patronizing (i hate that!!!). even when clients are super nasty i still don't blow up or anything. anyway this is ridiculous! why am i justifying my behaviour when i shouldn't have to...i didn't do anything wrong! i knwo part of it is am not a complete push over and they really do want someone who is basically a doormat which i am far from! the thing is what am i going to do now???
i have thought a lot about this in between my drunken hazes over the weekend and i'm starting to feel like this is the push from the universe that i needed to get off my butt and find my true calling whatever that may be. my only concern is money but i'm sure i'll be alright. i'm like a cat...throw me up in the air and i will always land on my feet. i tumble quite a bit on the way down but i always make it in one piece! i guess all i can do is think positively and try to get my game plan sorted. i have a few ideas of what to do next so we'll just have to see what the next little bit holds for me.
the one thing i am thankful for is that i have the most amazing, supportive and loving friends! i could never make it through this life without them. they inspire me and help give me the drive to succeed. i love them all!
i have thought a lot about this in between my drunken hazes over the weekend and i'm starting to feel like this is the push from the universe that i needed to get off my butt and find my true calling whatever that may be. my only concern is money but i'm sure i'll be alright. i'm like a cat...throw me up in the air and i will always land on my feet. i tumble quite a bit on the way down but i always make it in one piece! i guess all i can do is think positively and try to get my game plan sorted. i have a few ideas of what to do next so we'll just have to see what the next little bit holds for me.
the one thing i am thankful for is that i have the most amazing, supportive and loving friends! i could never make it through this life without them. they inspire me and help give me the drive to succeed. i love them all!