the flesh is back home, but my heart stays back
i'm back in jakarta, the capital. after a night in jogja, i've resolved myself to come back there again by next summer or even by the christmas break.. you can say that i'm not very happy to be back.. jakarta is okay, i guess.. but then there are too many things going on.. there are good things but there are more of bad things hovering around this place.. there are problems over problems but in jogja it seems that time moves much slower and the life there is very - hhmm, how can you say it? - soothing.. the serenity of the place immersed to the soul just as you stepped out of the plane.. the beauty of the surroundings just blow your mind away.. the hospitality of the people overwhelms you.. people there are not STUCK UP!
you see, in jakarta that people are just sooo all over themselves.. not only in the malls or whatever but in schools also.. there are those people that brought your spirit down.. oh, they dont have to say anything, by looking at their faces you are ready to ask yourself why do i even exist to see them live? well i dont think i've met a person like that in jogja, yet.. these people are just so griefstricken by their loss in the earthquake, i dont think they would have time to be too synical over others..
yes, i am a loner.. i'm not much of the sociable person thingy.. i rather stay home with a book and good music rather to be in the mall with other idiotic teenagers who seems to be doing completely nothing and just going around and around the mall showing what they wear.. i dont seek to be cool or whatever because people's definiton of cool is diffrent everywhere.. why bother seeking people's recognition when it is a very complicated thing? believe me, you will get frustrated if you try to be "cool".. well if you are aiming for a major in public relation, being cool is the thing you need.. but not me.. my circle of friendship is very small.. i dont make friends in a zap, there are people in my league who does get around with people easily but i'm mostly the one who will just step back when i see someone new.. i might look like a very outgoing person but inside that's not who i really am.. being outgoing is just part of the job.. you have to be outgoing when you're the class leader, the team leader, a "mom", a friend, a student, a sunday school teacher.. but the real me inside is a person who just love to sit back and relax.. not being with all the happenings or even to be in the know.. this is why i love jogja so much..
well yeah, whatever.. i'm just expressing who i really am.. at least i know my identity, the real me, rather than walk around the world not knowing who i really am..
you see, in jakarta that people are just sooo all over themselves.. not only in the malls or whatever but in schools also.. there are those people that brought your spirit down.. oh, they dont have to say anything, by looking at their faces you are ready to ask yourself why do i even exist to see them live? well i dont think i've met a person like that in jogja, yet.. these people are just so griefstricken by their loss in the earthquake, i dont think they would have time to be too synical over others..
yes, i am a loner.. i'm not much of the sociable person thingy.. i rather stay home with a book and good music rather to be in the mall with other idiotic teenagers who seems to be doing completely nothing and just going around and around the mall showing what they wear.. i dont seek to be cool or whatever because people's definiton of cool is diffrent everywhere.. why bother seeking people's recognition when it is a very complicated thing? believe me, you will get frustrated if you try to be "cool".. well if you are aiming for a major in public relation, being cool is the thing you need.. but not me.. my circle of friendship is very small.. i dont make friends in a zap, there are people in my league who does get around with people easily but i'm mostly the one who will just step back when i see someone new.. i might look like a very outgoing person but inside that's not who i really am.. being outgoing is just part of the job.. you have to be outgoing when you're the class leader, the team leader, a "mom", a friend, a student, a sunday school teacher.. but the real me inside is a person who just love to sit back and relax.. not being with all the happenings or even to be in the know.. this is why i love jogja so much..
well yeah, whatever.. i'm just expressing who i really am.. at least i know my identity, the real me, rather than walk around the world not knowing who i really am..