Apathetic Or Empathetic?

[miss_sugar_star]

its confusing.
i cant figure out whether i care too much
or dont care at all.
im completely lost.

so i had this boy, right? yea he wus pretty much muh life. i would have given up everything for him. in a heartbeat. jus to see him smile. but nuthin wus eva good enough for him. && we had to argue every fuckin day. i kno that not being togetha wus the best bet, but i'd hurt muhself ne way. ooooh but nah he's wit sum fat, ugly, whorey chick now. w.e floats his crazy boat.

i've learned to hate guys. only cuz they're all the same. or maybe its jus me. maybe im the dumbass who thinks shes hott shit cuz shes datin all the bad boys. i like assholes. wut the fuck can i say?

but im done. i try to think realistically && all i get is shitted on. so fuck that. no more tryin to grow up.  and if that almost 21 yr old is happy being the biggest fuckhead on the planet. so be it.

im focusing all muh attention on muh one true love. pills. but maybe i'll cheat on pills wit alcohol. and marry coke instead. have lil weed babies.

maybe im jus losing muh mind.
or maybe im the sanest person alive.
who knows?