Heartache and New Prospects
Well, post-breakup, Mike and I didn't talk for a few days, and when we finally did, we had both apparently been miserable since then... And he's commented about how he's been second guessing himself, and that this is probably the biggest mistake of his life, and that he's thought through the idea of asking me to take him back and seeing whether things could be different, but that he doesn't want to toy with my heart....
And we've been talking every day online again since the 5th of July when I got back from NY,NY... I saw him on Friday the 11th for the first time, and it was difficult, but it ended up fine... We talked and hung out, and it was fun... I saw him the next day at a friend's place for a party, and that was fun too... until the end of the night when he started a conversation that he shouldn't have started as we walked to our cars... it was just an emotional conversation, and he was really tired, and it wasn't really productive... in the end, it basically solidified to me that regardless of what I hope for the future, and the prospect of us ever getting back together, I need to just accept that it's over and move on... If he changes his mind, he does.... but I'm not going to hold my breath.... I can't....
But the talking has been going fine, and once I decided to let it go, I felt a lot better.... I'm trying to not have any expectations....
Sooooo..... On the job front..... Major developments.....
I sent out 24 resumes to various schools in the Boston and NYC area for Hall director positions.... and I'm really hoping I get one...
I've got 3 phone interviews set up already for either Friday or Monday, so things are coming along... I'm kinda really hoping I get the position at this school that in the Fenway Neighborhood... How cool would that be to live less than a mile from Fenway Park!?!?!?
However, if I get any of these jobs, it will be a really fast process..... like, "Hey, you want the job? Ok, see you next week."
So we'll see what happens.... But I'm kinda excited about it all, to be honest ;)
And we've been talking every day online again since the 5th of July when I got back from NY,NY... I saw him on Friday the 11th for the first time, and it was difficult, but it ended up fine... We talked and hung out, and it was fun... I saw him the next day at a friend's place for a party, and that was fun too... until the end of the night when he started a conversation that he shouldn't have started as we walked to our cars... it was just an emotional conversation, and he was really tired, and it wasn't really productive... in the end, it basically solidified to me that regardless of what I hope for the future, and the prospect of us ever getting back together, I need to just accept that it's over and move on... If he changes his mind, he does.... but I'm not going to hold my breath.... I can't....
But the talking has been going fine, and once I decided to let it go, I felt a lot better.... I'm trying to not have any expectations....
Sooooo..... On the job front..... Major developments.....
I sent out 24 resumes to various schools in the Boston and NYC area for Hall director positions.... and I'm really hoping I get one...
I've got 3 phone interviews set up already for either Friday or Monday, so things are coming along... I'm kinda really hoping I get the position at this school that in the Fenway Neighborhood... How cool would that be to live less than a mile from Fenway Park!?!?!?
However, if I get any of these jobs, it will be a really fast process..... like, "Hey, you want the job? Ok, see you next week."
So we'll see what happens.... But I'm kinda excited about it all, to be honest ;)