Things that make ya go hmmm
There are only 49 days until I leave for Fredericton. I am really excited. The school year is going to be wicked not to mention seeing everyone again. I am taking courses I like and can use to express myself, which I think I will also enjoy. The downside, I have been thinking maybe being an English Prof isn't for me, I am hoping I didn't make a mistake by dropping the Journalism route.
I was making a list of things I will need for the house, its so exciting to live by yourself, no rules no restrictions. Total freedom. I miss it. But I also love being home with my friends and family, its such a dichotomy. Its like you never believe you can be equally happy in two different worlds, but you really can. I have found so much happiness in Fredericton, but there is never any place like home. I hope this makes sense. I find I am more who I want to be and who I really am in Fredericton, because in PEI have to conform to this mold that was created in my past, I am not that girl anymore.
Guys really frustrate the hell out of me. I think the world would be a much better place if they didn't exist, or maybe they could exist just not have mouths. That would be perfect. Speechless men, what a world it would be!!! Maybe I am just bitter because it is my one year anniversary of being single. I HATE THE SINGLE LIFE. And by single life I mean rarely dating... maybe a date every two months at the very most in the past year, yeah me!!! Do the math people, thats six dates in a year, yes yes I am pathetic.
People wonder why I am sooo cynical when it comes to love, its because I believe it doesn't exist. Maybe in theory, or maybe for some people, rare miracles of love can occur, but in reality, LOVE IS NOT FOR EVERYONE. WE DON'T ALL EXPERIENCE IT AND WE MAY NEVER KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE. I am sorry if that sucks but it is true, and the sooner we all accept that fact the easier it is to let go. Love is only a term, the road to happiness does not have to solely reside on finding love. Accepting yourself, feeling accomplished, making others laugh or smile, thats what leads to happiness, not one friggin four letter word and excuse for a holliday.
Well I am done, let me know what you think, be kind.