Stupid calorie stress!!!
350, it's not that much, right?
350 and mostly it was milk and salad and like a tiny slize of tuna meat.
So why do I panic, why the fuck do I keep panicking?
I had SO MUCH yesterday, and I drank and I walked a lot.
And then came late night, and then came purge. Mostly acid tho. Dammit.
I so want to be okay with eating
I so do
I wish I COULD stop counting calories
I hate counting, my shrink tells me to stop but I can't, it's so subcontious
I count, I weigh my food, I obsess
I wish I didn't, oh god I wish I didn't
But I do
Sweet, beloved sanity ... come - and save me from purg(e)atory