On moving forward

[miss_nancee]

Things with me and Green Eyes have been...getting more serious? After having already spent two nights in a row at his place, we made it three nights. He sent me the kissy face after he had gotten off of work Friday afternoon and told me he was just gonna chill at home for the rest of the evening. He asked me to come over so I stopped by after I got off of work. We spent the rest of the evening hanging out, fucking, watching tv, the usual. As he walks to the kitchen, he says to me, "My sister still doesn't have someone to take to the show but I think she's taking her friend." "What show?" I asked him. "The rap show." It took me a second to get he was talking bout the Bone Thugs concert. "She's sitting in the section to the right of us." He said this so casually but this was huge. He and his little sister are super close, even if he does bust her balls all the time. They hang out almost every week when she stays at his place Tuesday nights. She's a big part of his life. I don't think he would have included her in all of this if he didn't think he was gonna bail on me before the concert. First, I got to hang out with his friends and now I'm gonna (probably) be hanging out with little sister too. DUDE. This is it. This is what I wanted from him. I wanted to be a part of his life...and I am. He told me about his buddy Sean trying to recruit him to work at another dealership. He was going through the pros and cons with me, telling me all these things on his mind. He told me about his little sister, getting into a fight as a kid, and other things about him. I was getting to know him. And when commercials for some movies came on the tv he says, "Oh we have to go see that!" And as we were looking at take out menus, he pulls out one for a Mexican restaurant. I asked him where it was. "By that sports bar we went to a long time ago." I can't believe he would remember that. Sometimes I don't think I give him enough credit. It's just...more and more he is planning things with me and bringing me into his life.

This is it. I'm moving on with my life and Green Eyes is right next to me. It feels so surreal. I can't believe this is where I am. A few months ago, I swore I was never going to see or talk to him again. And now? There are lots of things we are gonna do in the next few weeks. But I know. I know it's not gonna last with him. It never does. But I'm gonna take it as it comes. I'm gonna enjoy the girly feelings. And I thought 2014 was the best year of my life. 2015 is kicking ass so far! I'm happy. I'm so damn fucking happy.