Girly emotions
Green Eyes asked me to come over last night. We hung out and watched skate videos for a bit. We started talking about random stuff. He was telling me how he was suppose to sign up for community college but something happened and it didn't go through. He says to me, "That's how I ended up in the car business. It ruined my life...No it didn't...I met you." He turns and looks at me. I couldn't tell if he was serious but fuck. It caught me so off guard and I didn't know what to do but kiss him. I told him what my ma had told me when I saw her. "No she didn't say that," he says incredulously. As though I could make this stuff up! I asked him if he remember asking my ma if he could call me and he says he doesn't remember asking her that stuff. I asked him if he even remembers the day we met. "I remember it. Just not like how you do!" Haha. We went to bed but I was so awake. I couldn't sleep. I wrote in my green journal as he lay sleeping next to me. I wanted to capture the moment, how I was feeling at that exact time. It felt like I had never been as happy as I was sitting in my panties, with Green Eyes' arm around me, scribbling girly thoughts down on paper. When i was done, I lay down, got up, and tried to sleep again. He held me close to him, his chest to my back, his lips on my neck. And I realized it wasn't cuz I couldn't sleep--it's cuz I didn't want to sleep. I feel so connected with him in those times and I want to be awake for all of it. I didn't want to sleep cuz I was too happy. Cuz there are so many things for me to look forward. It's like I'm too excited. After a rather unrestful night, we woke up, did our thing, and I got ready for work. I gave him a kiss before I walked out the door.
As I was clocking out of work, I get a text message from him saying he had not done anything since I left his place. I asked him if he wanted to grab a bite to eat before I headed home and he did. So, after having been there in the morning already, I went back to his place later in the afternoon. We went up the street to the Spectrum and had a really tasty burger at Umami. Silly boy wanted something sweet so he got us both a cupcake. We retreated to the sofa to watch Street League Skating on tv. We fell asleep for awhile. Well, he slept while I listened to his snoring. Again, it was the "wanted to enjoy being in his arms" thing. We eventually got up. And I did something I had never done before: I left his place at 10 at night instead of arriving. Haha.
Things have been so different between us. He sent me a text message early Tuesday morning: The kissy face and nothing else. It came at a good time cuz I was already thinking about him that morning. It was a nice surprise. And today, I saw him both first thing in the morning and last thing before I went home. My college buddy asks me, "Don't you see him like once a week?" "Maybe..." I replied evaisively. "Oh so more." Haha. As much as I like spending time with Green Eyes, I like not seeing him every day too. Cuz when I do get the random message from him or head out to his place, it's kinda rare and I appreciate the little things more. Also, I can never sleep at his place but that's something else. But really, I like where I am. I like the things that are happening with him. And he always says something new to me. I don't know where we are going but it doesn't matter. I'm staying in the moment. I don't ever want to forget this feeling. I want to remember how happy I was in those moments I spent with Green Eyes if I ever get emo. This, right here, right now. But Bone Thugs is still just a month and half way. Let's see where Fate takes us.