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Dahling friends and neighbors,
I will be returning to Kansas a bit earlier than expected. My flight gets in on Friday the 25th. The short story is: I am going home to spend some extra time with my family before the holidays, and before I have to go back to working too much in Texas.
The long story is as follows:
My mom has some cysts in her uterus, and possibly something wrong with her gall bladder also. She will have to have a hysterectomy - probably in December, but earlier if they find out bad news from the sonograms and biopsies. She has some tests next week to see exactly what's going on. It is probably not cancer. It could be cancer. It could always be cancer. I am worried, because surgery is always a big deal, even if it's not for something life-threatening. I also want to be there in case she finds out she has cancer next week. Also last time a family member of mine went into the hospital to have tests and surgery, she died. I am apprehensive. No one ever tells me how serious things really are, because I am far away and they don't want to worry me unless absolutely necessary. Both sides of the family do this. I appreciate them being careful with my feelings, but I also get frustrated when I don't know the whole story. This way I will be able to go to her doctor's appointments with her and things.
I also want to spend time with my grandma Krause. She went in for a CAT scan a while back and they found 12 new spots of cancer. This is in addition to her original carcinoid tumor. It's inoperable. She's too weak for chemo. The doctor said that if she were his mother, he would just let her go peacefully and not bother with treatment. She's not going to get better, but no one knows how long it might take for her to get worse. She could be okay at Thanksgiving and gone by Christmas. She might hang in there for another two years. Nonetheless, I want to spend time with her because she has never properly taught me how to make potato salad, which is her specialty. I also am not very good at angel food cake yet. These are things we will have to work on before it is her time to go.
I will be returning to Kansas a bit earlier than expected. My flight gets in on Friday the 25th. The short story is: I am going home to spend some extra time with my family before the holidays, and before I have to go back to working too much in Texas.
The long story is as follows:
My mom has some cysts in her uterus, and possibly something wrong with her gall bladder also. She will have to have a hysterectomy - probably in December, but earlier if they find out bad news from the sonograms and biopsies. She has some tests next week to see exactly what's going on. It is probably not cancer. It could be cancer. It could always be cancer. I am worried, because surgery is always a big deal, even if it's not for something life-threatening. I also want to be there in case she finds out she has cancer next week. Also last time a family member of mine went into the hospital to have tests and surgery, she died. I am apprehensive. No one ever tells me how serious things really are, because I am far away and they don't want to worry me unless absolutely necessary. Both sides of the family do this. I appreciate them being careful with my feelings, but I also get frustrated when I don't know the whole story. This way I will be able to go to her doctor's appointments with her and things.
I also want to spend time with my grandma Krause. She went in for a CAT scan a while back and they found 12 new spots of cancer. This is in addition to her original carcinoid tumor. It's inoperable. She's too weak for chemo. The doctor said that if she were his mother, he would just let her go peacefully and not bother with treatment. She's not going to get better, but no one knows how long it might take for her to get worse. She could be okay at Thanksgiving and gone by Christmas. She might hang in there for another two years. Nonetheless, I want to spend time with her because she has never properly taught me how to make potato salad, which is her specialty. I also am not very good at angel food cake yet. These are things we will have to work on before it is her time to go.