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this is the weirdest summer ever as far as weather goes. c'mon pdx, get with it! a couple days ago it was hitting triple digits and now it's back to the low 70s? I seriously don't get it. at least it's been sunny!
a friend of mine up the street is like 6 weeks pregnant, I'm so jealous! I mean, the completely irrational part of my brain is jealous. I get so torn when I think about having another baby or not having another baby. I like the idea of Elliot being an only child. I don't want all my extra money going to school, clothes, doctors, etc etc etc. plus I love that by the time he turns 18 I won't even be 40 yet! even if we were to have another baby some day I'd rather adopt. there's no sense in bringing another baby into this world when there's so many who need love and a family, I just couldn't justify it in the end. but... the thought of never being pregnant with another biological child breaks my heart. :/ maybe we can foster kids some day, I've always liked the thought of that.
ugh, I'm weeding through my phone and deleting everyone who can't bother to take the 30 seconds it takes to return a phone call or text message. my therapist was telling me that what I should do is contact them and talk to them about it but... I really just don't give a shit anymore. the lame part is at least one of them was someone who I thought I had a pretty good friendship with but suddenly she seems to be the queen of flakes. UGH it is incredibly frustrating how many times I've attempted to make plans with people who can't even fucking bother to say yes or no. I have no problem being bailed on, shit happens and I get that, but god damn, it's nice to know you're being bailed on before the fact. I don't buy the "I'm busy!" excuse, if you have time to respond to things on facebook, you have time to text out a few letters or make a 10 second phone call.
speaking of facebook, I go back and forth on whether or not I should delete my facebook. I'm thinking about just deleting everyone off there who isn't family and making sure it's super private mode. ...even though I think it already is.
on a happier note, I think I'm going to start going to a free belly dancing class. also, my free/with donation yoga classes are now twice a week instead of once! the only bummer about the belly dancing class is that it's like a perfect walking distance away, about 2 miles. but... the friend that I'd be going with hates walking. maybe I can convince her otherwise. she's always talking about how she needs to lose weight/get in shape soo... I'll just work that angle.
I'm actually pretty happy with how I'm looking these days for once! I've revamped my diet and we've been out and about every day. I wonder how much we walk a day, I should invest in a pedometer. but my legs are less jiggly and my mid section has been tightening up. hooray! I keep reminding myself that just about all the bangin' moms I know didn't start to really look good until their kid was almost 2. and the rest are freaks of nature. har har, I kid. there's one chick I went to high school with, her kid is about a month older than ell, and she's always putting up pictures of herself in bikinis and talking about she's working out so much etc and I always find myself comparing me to her. ...which I shouldn't do because, well, for one, she has access to a lap pool/gym. and probably the biggest reason... she's in the freakin' military and she's out on deployment so she doesn't even have her kid. I'd be hitting the pool and gym 24/7 if I had free access and no baby too...
I'm recommitting myself to shopping at farmer's markets. I mean, there's one every day of the week for a good chunk of the year so there's no reason not to. plus, the produce is cheaper than the organic section of the grocery store and it's local. like, what's the point of buying organic if they're being shipped from another freakin' continent? I like the idea of keeping my money in oregon, or at least near it.
I need to get elliot in his crib. :( I have no idea where to begin. sunday-thursday chris is home in the evenings... so starting this sunday... it's crib time. elliot's going to be so mad. he's going to be so so mad. but I just have to keep telling myself it will be worth it in the end. my back can't take it anymore and I'm starting to feel like my relationship can't either.
soooooooooooooooo. I guess that's it. it's chilly today and we have all these potatoes and leftover cauliflower so I think I'll make a yummy creamy soup. I also want to make a strawberry rhubarb pie. I think I'll do that this evening.
OH. if you're not doing so already, watch breaking bad. so good. like. SOOOOOO GOOD. plus, aaron paul is super hot.
a friend of mine up the street is like 6 weeks pregnant, I'm so jealous! I mean, the completely irrational part of my brain is jealous. I get so torn when I think about having another baby or not having another baby. I like the idea of Elliot being an only child. I don't want all my extra money going to school, clothes, doctors, etc etc etc. plus I love that by the time he turns 18 I won't even be 40 yet! even if we were to have another baby some day I'd rather adopt. there's no sense in bringing another baby into this world when there's so many who need love and a family, I just couldn't justify it in the end. but... the thought of never being pregnant with another biological child breaks my heart. :/ maybe we can foster kids some day, I've always liked the thought of that.
ugh, I'm weeding through my phone and deleting everyone who can't bother to take the 30 seconds it takes to return a phone call or text message. my therapist was telling me that what I should do is contact them and talk to them about it but... I really just don't give a shit anymore. the lame part is at least one of them was someone who I thought I had a pretty good friendship with but suddenly she seems to be the queen of flakes. UGH it is incredibly frustrating how many times I've attempted to make plans with people who can't even fucking bother to say yes or no. I have no problem being bailed on, shit happens and I get that, but god damn, it's nice to know you're being bailed on before the fact. I don't buy the "I'm busy!" excuse, if you have time to respond to things on facebook, you have time to text out a few letters or make a 10 second phone call.
speaking of facebook, I go back and forth on whether or not I should delete my facebook. I'm thinking about just deleting everyone off there who isn't family and making sure it's super private mode. ...even though I think it already is.
on a happier note, I think I'm going to start going to a free belly dancing class. also, my free/with donation yoga classes are now twice a week instead of once! the only bummer about the belly dancing class is that it's like a perfect walking distance away, about 2 miles. but... the friend that I'd be going with hates walking. maybe I can convince her otherwise. she's always talking about how she needs to lose weight/get in shape soo... I'll just work that angle.
I'm actually pretty happy with how I'm looking these days for once! I've revamped my diet and we've been out and about every day. I wonder how much we walk a day, I should invest in a pedometer. but my legs are less jiggly and my mid section has been tightening up. hooray! I keep reminding myself that just about all the bangin' moms I know didn't start to really look good until their kid was almost 2. and the rest are freaks of nature. har har, I kid. there's one chick I went to high school with, her kid is about a month older than ell, and she's always putting up pictures of herself in bikinis and talking about she's working out so much etc and I always find myself comparing me to her. ...which I shouldn't do because, well, for one, she has access to a lap pool/gym. and probably the biggest reason... she's in the freakin' military and she's out on deployment so she doesn't even have her kid. I'd be hitting the pool and gym 24/7 if I had free access and no baby too...
I'm recommitting myself to shopping at farmer's markets. I mean, there's one every day of the week for a good chunk of the year so there's no reason not to. plus, the produce is cheaper than the organic section of the grocery store and it's local. like, what's the point of buying organic if they're being shipped from another freakin' continent? I like the idea of keeping my money in oregon, or at least near it.
I need to get elliot in his crib. :( I have no idea where to begin. sunday-thursday chris is home in the evenings... so starting this sunday... it's crib time. elliot's going to be so mad. he's going to be so so mad. but I just have to keep telling myself it will be worth it in the end. my back can't take it anymore and I'm starting to feel like my relationship can't either.
soooooooooooooooo. I guess that's it. it's chilly today and we have all these potatoes and leftover cauliflower so I think I'll make a yummy creamy soup. I also want to make a strawberry rhubarb pie. I think I'll do that this evening.
OH. if you're not doing so already, watch breaking bad. so good. like. SOOOOOO GOOD. plus, aaron paul is super hot.