Dont you just wish.....
.... that you sometimes had super powers? i wish i was able to inflict pain on some people simply by thinking it. someone did something on monday that i shall never forgive. thanks to them they ruined something i was very happy with yet their lies and deceit go un-noticed and they are carrying on with their happy lives. i hate them for ruining my life just to make themselves feel better.
ok i know i'm not the perfet person, no one ever is. im not innocent by any means and in some ways i was always asking for trouble. i made the mistake of accepting him into my life accepting his faults and forgiving his mistakes there lies the biggest mistake of my life.
i loved someone.
he cant forgive my mistake the mistake i regretted so much that i hated myself the mistake that he was never supposed to hear but due to some one who revels in peoples unhappyness he has heard. hes giving me hell for it on the pretext that i put him through hell when he made a mistake. truth is i never put him through hell. i blamed myself for his mistake i hurt myself because of his mistake.
now its time i moved on, too many mistakes ive made, the biggest being blind.
i know im stupid and ive been asking for this since it all began but im going to learn to live with it becos its the only thing i can do. no more blaming myself no more hurting myself, im so scarred and so ashamed.
i have to concentrate on the important things in life, and right now for me thats university, this is my dream and i have to stop ruining it for myself. i need to find the determination i once had and live the dream again.
stay with me cause every star i see is brighter than the last.
ok i know i'm not the perfet person, no one ever is. im not innocent by any means and in some ways i was always asking for trouble. i made the mistake of accepting him into my life accepting his faults and forgiving his mistakes there lies the biggest mistake of my life.
i loved someone.
he cant forgive my mistake the mistake i regretted so much that i hated myself the mistake that he was never supposed to hear but due to some one who revels in peoples unhappyness he has heard. hes giving me hell for it on the pretext that i put him through hell when he made a mistake. truth is i never put him through hell. i blamed myself for his mistake i hurt myself because of his mistake.
now its time i moved on, too many mistakes ive made, the biggest being blind.
i know im stupid and ive been asking for this since it all began but im going to learn to live with it becos its the only thing i can do. no more blaming myself no more hurting myself, im so scarred and so ashamed.
i have to concentrate on the important things in life, and right now for me thats university, this is my dream and i have to stop ruining it for myself. i need to find the determination i once had and live the dream again.
stay with me cause every star i see is brighter than the last.