it just kinda hit me

[miss_dimack]

last night was weird between scotty and i.  last night was the first night that i thought i could never give him what he needed.  when he said, "its not your job to make me feel better.  its always my job to make you feel better."... that just hurt in so many ways.

now i am contemplating being with him.

i need to become independent from him.  i shouldnt rely on him so much.  he doesnt need me as much as i need him.  and that bothers me.

so.. i think i am not ready to be in a relationship.  or somethin.

i just feel extremely down.  and for the first time, i dont feel like being with him.

i dunno what to do.