wow
i didnt know someone had THAT much of an impact on my moods.
just like that, im happy again.
i dont get it.
..at all.
so sunday i guess im hanging out with aron. thank god i got sunday off! it should be a good time, hes fun to be around.
i guess when i came back to emerald city, i wasnt expecting to meet anyone. he said it was fate, i say it was just pure coincidence. and me quitting emerald city was not because of him. i want to be able to work full time and not feel bad about not going to sunday games because i have work. i do better all around when im busy up the ass. there is no room for error i guess.
i trained with him today, and he pretty much kicked me in the ass. i needed that. he pushes me when i work and thats why i like to train with him! i actually get something out of the sesions.
all of august was just not a good month. my emotions/moods are all over the place and i couldnt do anything about them. i would go from high to low in a second and i hated it.
fucking a.
he gives me something to come back to. hes not clingy, and he doesnt call me all the time, which bugs me, ahaha, but he just gives me lip and i love it. i dont like it when guys are purely nice to you and all they do is compliment you. i like a challenge. and he is that.
im not expecting much. im just trying to teach myself to go with the flow and dont get my hopes up for anything. it sucks when everything backfires in my face.
we'll see.
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