She walks away from the only thing she had.
Wow, I haven’t updated this thing in a while. Well, Thursday I went to Vern’s for the day. We listened to music, and played guitar for a little while. I tried to teach her how to play a Metallica song. It was quite funny, but I think she got some of it down. We also called Jordan on his cell phone while he was down in Maryland. That was much fun. Then I went out with my mother dearest for dinner. After that I came home, packed my bag, and headed over to Courtney’s. Thursday evening we stayed up till about, 4. We got up and it was raining. We played out in the rain for a while and took a 4-wheeler drive down the lane. We were going to go to the Jamboree, but it didn’t stop raining. Instead we decided to go catch a movie. We went to see The Longest Yard with her little brother and her cousin, Dustin. It was an awesome movie. So after that we went back to her place. We stayed up till about, 2 Friday night. Yeah, I guess you could say by Saturday I was very tired. So Saturday we did the usual shopping with my aunt. Afterwards we came back to the house. My sister was here so we decided to go up to the State College mall. Of course we head to Hot Topic first. I got a black and purple tank top, a maroon HIM shirt, and a rad black and red Converse sweatshirt. So I came home and slept in until 1. I did nothing all day Sunday. Now I can’t fall asleep. I either start to think about something, or old images emerge from the depths of the back of my mind. Images that I tried so desperately to hide within my mind. These are things that I just can’t hold back anymore. I’ll just let them flow through my mind, hoping that it will be their last. So, here I am now. Sitting in front of the computer in the dark. Silence and loneliness creeps into the room to make it complete… to make me complete. It’s not enough, though. It will never be enough. This scene, it’s now become a sort of obsession. I long to just sit in my room with the blinds pulled down and my lights turned off. I long to hide myself from the world, from everyone forever. I want to close my eyes and just wish the world away. I guess that just goes to show that everyone has a dream…