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I think my iPod may be detrimental to my emotional health.
Yesterday I went into the city to see a play by myself. I popped in the ol' earbuds for the travel, and clicked to a favorite: Ted Leo. The bus rolled through Seattle, but I didn't notice. All of a sudden, it was just me, with Ted's plaintive vocals filling my ears. I could not hear the rumble of the bus. I could not hear the driver's thanks as I departed. I could not hear the smack-smack of my Chucks on the snowy sidewalk. Passers-by chatted mutely. Children open their mouths to laugh but no sound came to me. Somehow, on a gray afternoon in the Seattle Center, I was totally alone.
It is not a question of having a boyfriend or a girlfriend. I could've been surrounded by lovers past and present and still felt this way. My iPod had shut me off from the world. In a sea of people, I was isolated.
Mixed with the perpetually cloudy weather around here, and it's a dangerous combination for my emotional state.
Switching to The Cat Empire helped slightly, but I may have to start weaning myself off of my iPod if I ever want to feel truly a part of this city.
Yesterday I went into the city to see a play by myself. I popped in the ol' earbuds for the travel, and clicked to a favorite: Ted Leo. The bus rolled through Seattle, but I didn't notice. All of a sudden, it was just me, with Ted's plaintive vocals filling my ears. I could not hear the rumble of the bus. I could not hear the driver's thanks as I departed. I could not hear the smack-smack of my Chucks on the snowy sidewalk. Passers-by chatted mutely. Children open their mouths to laugh but no sound came to me. Somehow, on a gray afternoon in the Seattle Center, I was totally alone.
It is not a question of having a boyfriend or a girlfriend. I could've been surrounded by lovers past and present and still felt this way. My iPod had shut me off from the world. In a sea of people, I was isolated.
Mixed with the perpetually cloudy weather around here, and it's a dangerous combination for my emotional state.
Switching to The Cat Empire helped slightly, but I may have to start weaning myself off of my iPod if I ever want to feel truly a part of this city.