Work ick
I dreaded coming into work today. S2 and I are still not getting along work wise. I am not her manager anymore but we still have to work together. And I am having a hard time, not managing her, and she is having a hard time not expecting me to solve all her problems. Something will have to give. I may have to say, just do as I ask, and that is it, and if you don't like it tell me, and I won't have you do it. And we will leave it at that. No back and forth no debate, no nothing. It doesn't make for a great work environment, in fact it can make for a pretty toxic environment, but it is pretty toxic right now. I've had to up my anti-anxiety meds just to deal with work.
She just doesn't get that we are admin. Yes we are a very important part of the puzzle here, but our orders come from above, and there are regulations, and standards that come from organizations above us and outside our office that we don't have any control over. She as an english major doesn't like the wording of things that come down to us. And sometimes that is just tough cookies. She wants everything to conform to a certain look, a certain standard, and wants it all to happen NOW! And expects me to step up and make that happen. Well I'm not. Not right now. It isn't on my radar right now. A) my mind set isn't there, B) there are questions as to whether logos are going to change B) partners are changing c) more logos are changing D) different printers are going to be used. There are too many variables right now to be making changes until some decisions get made. And those decisions don't come from me. I have given the people who make the decisions all the information, and now I wait. And there is nothing I can do but wait, and when decisions get made, I start standardizing things because I will have the information needed to be able to create the standardizations.
She also doesn't get that this firm is just not ever going to be what she wants it to be. Too many mistakes have been made along it's growth for it to ever reach it's full potential. The wrong people have been put in the wrong positions, and those people will never leave now, and they have the jobs that an office manager would do, that an HR person would do, so hiring those key people would be moot at that point. But that one person, does not have the skills to be an office manager, or an HR person. But I am supposed to fix this.
I am going to have to remind her, I am NOT her manager right now. I may never be her manager again, let alone stay in this job. I am reconsidering taking that time off and searching for a job. Telling them, that this is part of an old life that I need to move on from and start fresh somewhere else. I would get a good reference from here. I wouldn't burn any bridges. As much as I want to set fire to everything and dance in the light of the flames laughing. I won't. I already feel like I'm doing too much of that.
Okay time to put the mask back on.
She just doesn't get that we are admin. Yes we are a very important part of the puzzle here, but our orders come from above, and there are regulations, and standards that come from organizations above us and outside our office that we don't have any control over. She as an english major doesn't like the wording of things that come down to us. And sometimes that is just tough cookies. She wants everything to conform to a certain look, a certain standard, and wants it all to happen NOW! And expects me to step up and make that happen. Well I'm not. Not right now. It isn't on my radar right now. A) my mind set isn't there, B) there are questions as to whether logos are going to change B) partners are changing c) more logos are changing D) different printers are going to be used. There are too many variables right now to be making changes until some decisions get made. And those decisions don't come from me. I have given the people who make the decisions all the information, and now I wait. And there is nothing I can do but wait, and when decisions get made, I start standardizing things because I will have the information needed to be able to create the standardizations.
She also doesn't get that this firm is just not ever going to be what she wants it to be. Too many mistakes have been made along it's growth for it to ever reach it's full potential. The wrong people have been put in the wrong positions, and those people will never leave now, and they have the jobs that an office manager would do, that an HR person would do, so hiring those key people would be moot at that point. But that one person, does not have the skills to be an office manager, or an HR person. But I am supposed to fix this.
I am going to have to remind her, I am NOT her manager right now. I may never be her manager again, let alone stay in this job. I am reconsidering taking that time off and searching for a job. Telling them, that this is part of an old life that I need to move on from and start fresh somewhere else. I would get a good reference from here. I wouldn't burn any bridges. As much as I want to set fire to everything and dance in the light of the flames laughing. I won't. I already feel like I'm doing too much of that.
Okay time to put the mask back on.