What's next?
So the last time I posted, I've had 535 messages. I don't even know if anyone remembers me but I like to use LJ again for rl-blogging xD. Erm I ignored everyone for a while but during that time a few months ago, those were the most difficult life changing events of my entire life. I've finally recovered from it. I'm still depressed as usual but not with a few wise experiences to tell.
Now where am I in life?
I'm in this living hell, I Fucking knew it, the one thing I feared when I was younger was becoming like 'those' miserable adults who live their lives very reptitiously, I prayed I wouldn't become one and now LOOK at me, I'm one hell of a miserable adult. Life sucks when you get to my age. I just had my birthday, I'm fucking old wth am I doing with my life?! I've accomplished nothing at all. I moved out of my parents house again, back to OC, in lil saigon vietnam town LOL. I got a super nice apartment, expensive but worth it, in the center of westminster, I work for a huge Japanese manufacturing company in the accounting department. I have been practicing my Japanese with the international Japanese employees, we go out to lunch everyday and drink beer after work togther, everyone is so nice to me, my boyfriend stays with me everyday at the apartment, we cook and clean together but there's other things I am not so happy with him, we have so many problems =/ These are all the things I wanted, I got it, but I'm unhappy. Still depressed as much as ever.
I cannot help beg the question, so what's next? What now? What's in store for me? My life? Where is it gonna be headed now? I can't stand my life, I'm fed up with it.
Now where am I in life?
I'm in this living hell, I Fucking knew it, the one thing I feared when I was younger was becoming like 'those' miserable adults who live their lives very reptitiously, I prayed I wouldn't become one and now LOOK at me, I'm one hell of a miserable adult. Life sucks when you get to my age. I just had my birthday, I'm fucking old wth am I doing with my life?! I've accomplished nothing at all. I moved out of my parents house again, back to OC, in lil saigon vietnam town LOL. I got a super nice apartment, expensive but worth it, in the center of westminster, I work for a huge Japanese manufacturing company in the accounting department. I have been practicing my Japanese with the international Japanese employees, we go out to lunch everyday and drink beer after work togther, everyone is so nice to me, my boyfriend stays with me everyday at the apartment, we cook and clean together but there's other things I am not so happy with him, we have so many problems =/ These are all the things I wanted, I got it, but I'm unhappy. Still depressed as much as ever.
I cannot help beg the question, so what's next? What now? What's in store for me? My life? Where is it gonna be headed now? I can't stand my life, I'm fed up with it.