Jlo
Jealousy
\Jeal"ous*y\, n.; pl. Jealousies. The quality of being jealous; earnest concern or solicitude; painful apprehension of rivalship in cases nearly affecting one's happiness; painful suspicion of the faithfulness of husband, wife, or lover.
It's strange how many of us are jealous of our partner's past even if the events occured prior to the start of the relationship. I've been reading 'The End of the Affair' by Graham Greene and in it there's a passage that reads, "...I would be just as angry because she refused to be jealous of my past or my possible future. I refused to believe that love could take on any other form than mine: I measured love by the extent of my jealousy..." Having been confronted of a past relationship (if one can call it that) with Moody Bitch, in hindsight I am not entirely sure that my explanation was in fact necessary. Afterall, MB and I only saw each other for a little while and this all happened a long time ago...long before we even met. I have no problems with being open about the past but surely, one is not and should not be required to go into lengthy conversations of one's past relationships or in this case...trial and error(s). I was accused of not having told him but I am sure I had mentioned it previously. Why would there be a need to hide the fact that what started as a romantic interest became a deeper and more lasting friendship? Good friends are hard to come by and MB is one of my most succesful failed-romantic-interest-becomes-friend stories...I am so proud of this fact and would never try to hide it. However, I suppose there is good cause for having explained the situation, although not owed to him, I remember how it felt to be denied details and explanations and that wasn't ever nice.
A and I had dinner with Superwoman last night. Over the course of the meal, doors were opened and I am now faced with career decisions that involve moving to Sydney, staying in Melbourne, interning for a short period in KL before returning here and the possibiliy of HK and Singapore. I am trying to make the best possibe decision for my career but family, friends and Am are affecting the equation. I've been told and I know that I should decide based on future career prospects but I am an emo one and unless offered the job of my dreams, I am capable of forgoing the job that many covet for the people I care about. However, I need to be certain that my decision reflects predominanty on self interest...I don't want to base my life around someone else again because I have come to realise that no matter how happy you are or how perfect everything seems to be, in one instant everything can come crashing down and you'll be left picking up the pieces. No one is worth the risk of feeling that again. I need to remember this.
\Jeal"ous*y\, n.; pl. Jealousies. The quality of being jealous; earnest concern or solicitude; painful apprehension of rivalship in cases nearly affecting one's happiness; painful suspicion of the faithfulness of husband, wife, or lover.
It's strange how many of us are jealous of our partner's past even if the events occured prior to the start of the relationship. I've been reading 'The End of the Affair' by Graham Greene and in it there's a passage that reads, "...I would be just as angry because she refused to be jealous of my past or my possible future. I refused to believe that love could take on any other form than mine: I measured love by the extent of my jealousy..." Having been confronted of a past relationship (if one can call it that) with Moody Bitch, in hindsight I am not entirely sure that my explanation was in fact necessary. Afterall, MB and I only saw each other for a little while and this all happened a long time ago...long before we even met. I have no problems with being open about the past but surely, one is not and should not be required to go into lengthy conversations of one's past relationships or in this case...trial and error(s). I was accused of not having told him but I am sure I had mentioned it previously. Why would there be a need to hide the fact that what started as a romantic interest became a deeper and more lasting friendship? Good friends are hard to come by and MB is one of my most succesful failed-romantic-interest-becomes-friend stories...I am so proud of this fact and would never try to hide it. However, I suppose there is good cause for having explained the situation, although not owed to him, I remember how it felt to be denied details and explanations and that wasn't ever nice.
A and I had dinner with Superwoman last night. Over the course of the meal, doors were opened and I am now faced with career decisions that involve moving to Sydney, staying in Melbourne, interning for a short period in KL before returning here and the possibiliy of HK and Singapore. I am trying to make the best possibe decision for my career but family, friends and Am are affecting the equation. I've been told and I know that I should decide based on future career prospects but I am an emo one and unless offered the job of my dreams, I am capable of forgoing the job that many covet for the people I care about. However, I need to be certain that my decision reflects predominanty on self interest...I don't want to base my life around someone else again because I have come to realise that no matter how happy you are or how perfect everything seems to be, in one instant everything can come crashing down and you'll be left picking up the pieces. No one is worth the risk of feeling that again. I need to remember this.