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And another thing: My mom just called me about tonight and she said "well if your dad is coming then Thomas won't come. (slightest of pauses) and If you don't want Thomas to come, then he won't" What the fuck?!?! Where the HELL do either of them come off thinking Thomas can come to the show?! When have I EVER made the slightest of impressions that I want him to be a part of my life? Allowing him to be in the car when she came to bring me home was a kind of a huge step in the "I-no-longer-loathe-the-sight-of-him" process. I truly would not be able to perform knowing he was in the audience. Thank fucking God we're not doing Family Photo tonight. I would probably cry right on stage if that were the case....I told her that not only is dad coming for sure, I also do not want him in the audience. Thankfully, that's all I had to say. But, damn, what if she hadn't mentioned that and he had shown up?
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