my 15yo nephew committed suicide on his fathers birthday. i'm still having a hard time grieving. it scared me because he was posting these cryptic emo posts but acted ok otherwise. there was romance gone wrong, pressure from my brother (his father) and his bitch of a mother had kicked him out a week before. my mom is in a really terrible ( Read more... )

headline style borrowed from a friend ( Read more... )

i have gall stones. couple of flare ups but no big deal yet ( Read more... )

i came out to mom when i was 15. hence the dx of PCOS due to mom's worrying i had too much testosterone. i'm not kidding. i've had to keep coming out to her because she still refers to it as 'that phase you went through'. no mom i'm still me ( Read more... )

crap. its gonna cost $800. that 103 more than i get in a month. they accept NO insurances. maybe she'll take payments and i'll do it in a few months. i had some testing done yesterday and i had some problems so they did recomend i get the testing ( Read more... )

i felt so hungry today! i made a lentil rice carrot onion and turkey bacon crock pot dish. i just couldn't quit eating it! my mom said put some salt on it and it will satisfy your craving. totally worked. i need to actually salt now when i cook. i did have some low fat popcorn and felt full as well. and a juice-cicle. very tastey.

today was cold. i put on my headscarf over my forehead and ears and pulled it around and knotted it at my neck. i went on my walk and people who had smiled at me and said hello either ignored me or frowned at me. only the lesbian couple was nice enough to both say hi ( Read more... )

went through all my clothes today, got rid of about half my shirts. can't find my long black a-line skirt. this is driving me crazy! dump out all the give away clothes and nit pick through them. nothing. eat half a bag of popcorn and an orange. take my second hour long walk of the day. fill up bottle with ice at the gas station (4th bottle ( Read more... )

half way through my first 3 weeks of no smoking! feel better, craving like a maniac.

i have all kinds of medical stuff i've saved for a sick day ; / its a good thing i did cause i hurt a bone in my foot so i'm in my boot. never get rid of medical stuff unless its expired and even then... well i keep that crap too.