My Brother's Suicide Attempt
My brother tried to commit suicide last night. He is my oldest brother, Tim, who lives in Arizona and right now he is in the ICU in critical condition breathing with a ventilator and heavily sedated. Sadly this is not the first time he has done this. Every so many years when things get bad for him, he ends up in the hospital either from alcohol poisoning or suicide attempt. But this time was much more critical then the others. My mom is listed as next of kin so they called her last night. She told me this morning and I called the hospital myself and talked to the nurse in his ICU room. They say his vital signs are better and they are hoping to take him off the ventilator soon, hopefully. He was brought in unresponsive last night and they pumped his stomach but he wasn't able to breathe and was pretty much almost dead. No one knows what he took or how much. The Dr's were running blood tests to see. We think he had a fight with his 'roommate' (aka his boyfriend...) and they broke up. The boyfriend called 911 for him and hasn't been heard from since. I asked the nurse if Josh (the boyfriend) has called or come to the hospital and they said only me and my mom have called. Those two have been together for many, many years now and my brother had started his own business which I guess was starting to have financial problems. Plus my mom and him were not talking due to an argument they had. So add all this up with an emotionally unstable person anyways and this is what he does. He has been doing so well for several years now so this is really sad. So the Dr's are trying to get ahold of this little jerk Josh so they can find out quicker what he took, how much, what time, etc... and Josh won't answer his phone. But after the blood work gets back and when Tim regains conscious and starts breathing on his own, we'll all know anyways.
I am not super close to Tim but we do talk on the phone from time to time. It's hard because of our age difference (he is 11 years older then me) and location but I would go after Josh and ring his neck if I had too. Thankfully he called 911 for my brother and saved his life but still.... he doesn't even come to see him or check on him? I think Tim is going to be okay but he was close to death and they had to call my mom and ask if they should continue to work on him. Maybe he didn't have a living will and since she was next of kin she had to tell them to keep him on the ventilator so he can continue to breathe.?
My mom found out that he called my Aunt last night and told her good-bye and was kinda weird acting but told her he was getting ready to go overseas (he travels alot with his business) and she didn't think much of it.
I hate suicide. I had a boyfriend that killed himself when we were in highschool. He could've picked up the phone and called me. I was waiting on him to call me that day and wondered why he hadn't. I went to work with a weird feeling. My mom showed up at work hours later and had to sit me down and tell me. It was horrible. He unhooked the phones, hung up his keys where he always did, he sat on the edge of his bed looking right at my picture on his bedroom wall and wearing my class ring around his neck and shot himself with a rifle. He couldn't just reach out to me or his best friend when he was upset and talk to either one of us. Instead he felt taking his own life was the only answer. So suicide brings up a whole lot of ugly for me. I don't know what to say to Tim when I talk to him next time. Next time Tim is going to make sure he does it right and that scares me.
And today is Ben's b-day. What a day......
I am not super close to Tim but we do talk on the phone from time to time. It's hard because of our age difference (he is 11 years older then me) and location but I would go after Josh and ring his neck if I had too. Thankfully he called 911 for my brother and saved his life but still.... he doesn't even come to see him or check on him? I think Tim is going to be okay but he was close to death and they had to call my mom and ask if they should continue to work on him. Maybe he didn't have a living will and since she was next of kin she had to tell them to keep him on the ventilator so he can continue to breathe.?
My mom found out that he called my Aunt last night and told her good-bye and was kinda weird acting but told her he was getting ready to go overseas (he travels alot with his business) and she didn't think much of it.
I hate suicide. I had a boyfriend that killed himself when we were in highschool. He could've picked up the phone and called me. I was waiting on him to call me that day and wondered why he hadn't. I went to work with a weird feeling. My mom showed up at work hours later and had to sit me down and tell me. It was horrible. He unhooked the phones, hung up his keys where he always did, he sat on the edge of his bed looking right at my picture on his bedroom wall and wearing my class ring around his neck and shot himself with a rifle. He couldn't just reach out to me or his best friend when he was upset and talk to either one of us. Instead he felt taking his own life was the only answer. So suicide brings up a whole lot of ugly for me. I don't know what to say to Tim when I talk to him next time. Next time Tim is going to make sure he does it right and that scares me.
And today is Ben's b-day. What a day......