What to do with myself
I don't know what to do with myself. I skipped 1st AND 2nd period today. I woke up and saw that it was 7:45 already. I don't know how that happened considering my alarm was on full blast for an hour and a half. So I just went back to sleep. If my mom's in a bad mood today, she's going to lecture me about it. Boo. But really, I don't even think she cares that much anymore. She knows it's only a matter of months before I’m outta here. She'll still break out into her lectures though, while half-yelling at me. I don't know how that happens, but it leaves me silent. I don't argue with her anymore. I just sit, hear her out, and then do the dishes like a nice little girl.
Diana wrote me a letter. Apparently, a lot has been going on with her but she doesn't feel like there's anyone to talk to. I don't blame her. There really is no one to talk to. But she wrote me that letter and I'm glad we're feeling some of the same things. "There has been a lot of stuff going on that's been bothering me, like with our friends and stuff. But I think I've come to accept it all because there's nothing I can really do about it." Yeah, I feel the same way. It just seems like some of them choose to drown themselves in this superficial world, where everything is just fine. They don't acknowledge the fact that it's not the same anymore. They just let it slip by and pretend... with all their jokes and laughter covering it up.
I got the housing info for Davis and I'm excited! There are four different undergraduate housing projects to choose from. My parents automatically said it would be okay for me to stay in a suite. I'm visiting the college during Spring Break, in about two weeks.
I've generally been pretty happy lately because the near future doesn't seem foggy anymore. I know what I'm going to be doing and everything, which makes me more confident. The only that that's been dragging me down is school. I don't want to be there. I know I've said it all before but: it's soooooo pointless. Can't wait until it's over. Can't wait until after AP exams and Senior festivities start.
Diana wrote me a letter. Apparently, a lot has been going on with her but she doesn't feel like there's anyone to talk to. I don't blame her. There really is no one to talk to. But she wrote me that letter and I'm glad we're feeling some of the same things. "There has been a lot of stuff going on that's been bothering me, like with our friends and stuff. But I think I've come to accept it all because there's nothing I can really do about it." Yeah, I feel the same way. It just seems like some of them choose to drown themselves in this superficial world, where everything is just fine. They don't acknowledge the fact that it's not the same anymore. They just let it slip by and pretend... with all their jokes and laughter covering it up.
I got the housing info for Davis and I'm excited! There are four different undergraduate housing projects to choose from. My parents automatically said it would be okay for me to stay in a suite. I'm visiting the college during Spring Break, in about two weeks.
I've generally been pretty happy lately because the near future doesn't seem foggy anymore. I know what I'm going to be doing and everything, which makes me more confident. The only that that's been dragging me down is school. I don't want to be there. I know I've said it all before but: it's soooooo pointless. Can't wait until it's over. Can't wait until after AP exams and Senior festivities start.