Regrets
Ok, so I have to admit that I was a bit harsh on my mom yesterday. Of course I know that she just wants the best for me. But why does she always have to be right?
In one of her lectures from last week, she said I should plan and actually schedule an appointment with whomever I was going to make the all-state audition tape from. I told her not to worry… why would I need to schedule an appointment? At that time, I had thought that I was going to record with Tom's uncle. Tom offered to let me come with him to San Jose state where his uncle worked and we could record there for 20 bucks an hour, which is very cheap. Of course I agreed. So that's why I got annoyed at my mom who was telling me to get everything organized. I did have everything organized. At that time.
Tom told me today that his uncle is now in Gilroy and that Tom's family is going to Gilroy on Thanksgiving. So he said I couldn't get my tape recorded unless I came with him to Gilroy, which is not going to happen since I have to do my own family stuff on Thanksgiving. So now I am left w/o anyone to help me record. My mom was right about how things can get messed up at last minute. I have exactly a week to practice and get the tape recorded. I was reluctant to call my teacher about it but I had no choice. I don't think I can handle this w/o her. But at the same time, I feel bad because this week is Thanksgiving and she already cancelled lessons for the whole week. I left her a message with her husband in a desperate plea, asking her if she could help me with the recording. Now I am waiting her to call me back.
Gosh, I'm pathetic. And I don't want to tell my mom either because she'll either give me that "I told you so" look or that "I told you so" lecture.
I think I am very afraid of criticism.
In one of her lectures from last week, she said I should plan and actually schedule an appointment with whomever I was going to make the all-state audition tape from. I told her not to worry… why would I need to schedule an appointment? At that time, I had thought that I was going to record with Tom's uncle. Tom offered to let me come with him to San Jose state where his uncle worked and we could record there for 20 bucks an hour, which is very cheap. Of course I agreed. So that's why I got annoyed at my mom who was telling me to get everything organized. I did have everything organized. At that time.
Tom told me today that his uncle is now in Gilroy and that Tom's family is going to Gilroy on Thanksgiving. So he said I couldn't get my tape recorded unless I came with him to Gilroy, which is not going to happen since I have to do my own family stuff on Thanksgiving. So now I am left w/o anyone to help me record. My mom was right about how things can get messed up at last minute. I have exactly a week to practice and get the tape recorded. I was reluctant to call my teacher about it but I had no choice. I don't think I can handle this w/o her. But at the same time, I feel bad because this week is Thanksgiving and she already cancelled lessons for the whole week. I left her a message with her husband in a desperate plea, asking her if she could help me with the recording. Now I am waiting her to call me back.
Gosh, I'm pathetic. And I don't want to tell my mom either because she'll either give me that "I told you so" look or that "I told you so" lecture.
I think I am very afraid of criticism.