ill leave it at that
alarm goes off. i open my eye's. fuck. i do not want to get up. i just want to lay here. i just want to sleep. i want to watch a movie.
i stand up. i walk in the bathroom. i look at myself in the mirror. i am going to work.
i get to the job. it is raining hard. we get to go home early. i am excited. i make plan's with a friend.
then i get a phone call. the rain is over, we have to go back to the job.
back to the job. i work and work. it rains again. we leave again.
i am at home with nothing to do.
steven and brandon are back, they are at the guitar center with josie.
i go over to josie' later.
we get hi.
we all enter the fifth dimension through josie's back yard.
we decide to work on our film.
we go out, hi, and film some scene's.
then i go to josies band practise at his drummers house out in the middle of nowhere nampa. it was a sort of creepy feeling, being there. the guy had a horse with one eye, the other one was ripped up, red, and had a big black dot, it looked demonic. and he had a 3 legged dog that wanted to play catch. josies band was pretty good. lots of screaming. it hurt my ear drums.
then we went back to josies. brandon showed up. he seemed pissed off.
no one knew why.
we went out to the wood's to film. we forgot something. we forgot to get hi again.
back in the car.
we went back to josies, we smoked out.
back to the car. back to the wood's.
we filmed. we screamed. we ran. we did it.
then we all went back to josies, turned off the lights and watched what we filmed that day.
then sterling called. he was going bowling. i went down to the bowling alley.
it was bizzare. my mind was somewhere else.
i saw sterling in a way i had never seen him before.
everyone was really nice at the bowling alley. really nice.
i remembered i had burned sterling a cd a couple weeks ago before i even knew he was going to be here, i burned him a copy of my portishead cd. but i left it at my house. i told him. and the second i said i left it at my house. he and erin exchange glances.
erin looked at him and gave him this smile as if this was "typical behavior" from me. i dont even know erin, which means sterling had to have filled her in. i didnt even have to burn him a fucking cd. that really pissed me off. i wanted to say something, and i am the type that usually does, but i didnt want to ruin sterlings last night by making a scene. so i shut up. i kept to myself. that really fucking bothered me. fuck erin for judging me, she doesnt even know me. i have so much more i want to say on that, but ill leave it at that.
then the night ended and i went home. my alarm didnt go off this morning. i missed work, i am probably getting fired.
i dont know what i am doing today.
i stand up. i walk in the bathroom. i look at myself in the mirror. i am going to work.
i get to the job. it is raining hard. we get to go home early. i am excited. i make plan's with a friend.
then i get a phone call. the rain is over, we have to go back to the job.
back to the job. i work and work. it rains again. we leave again.
i am at home with nothing to do.
steven and brandon are back, they are at the guitar center with josie.
i go over to josie' later.
we get hi.
we all enter the fifth dimension through josie's back yard.
we decide to work on our film.
we go out, hi, and film some scene's.
then i go to josies band practise at his drummers house out in the middle of nowhere nampa. it was a sort of creepy feeling, being there. the guy had a horse with one eye, the other one was ripped up, red, and had a big black dot, it looked demonic. and he had a 3 legged dog that wanted to play catch. josies band was pretty good. lots of screaming. it hurt my ear drums.
then we went back to josies. brandon showed up. he seemed pissed off.
no one knew why.
we went out to the wood's to film. we forgot something. we forgot to get hi again.
back in the car.
we went back to josies, we smoked out.
back to the car. back to the wood's.
we filmed. we screamed. we ran. we did it.
then we all went back to josies, turned off the lights and watched what we filmed that day.
then sterling called. he was going bowling. i went down to the bowling alley.
it was bizzare. my mind was somewhere else.
i saw sterling in a way i had never seen him before.
everyone was really nice at the bowling alley. really nice.
i remembered i had burned sterling a cd a couple weeks ago before i even knew he was going to be here, i burned him a copy of my portishead cd. but i left it at my house. i told him. and the second i said i left it at my house. he and erin exchange glances.
erin looked at him and gave him this smile as if this was "typical behavior" from me. i dont even know erin, which means sterling had to have filled her in. i didnt even have to burn him a fucking cd. that really pissed me off. i wanted to say something, and i am the type that usually does, but i didnt want to ruin sterlings last night by making a scene. so i shut up. i kept to myself. that really fucking bothered me. fuck erin for judging me, she doesnt even know me. i have so much more i want to say on that, but ill leave it at that.
then the night ended and i went home. my alarm didnt go off this morning. i missed work, i am probably getting fired.
i dont know what i am doing today.