Get a job.
My dreams are plagued by old lovers and former friends. Every night.
'There's no use in me a-cryin'
I've done everything and now I'm sick of trying
I've thrown away my nights, and wasted all my days over you
Now you go your way baby and I'll go mine
Now and forever 'till the end of time
And I'll find somebody new and baby
We'll say we're through and you won't matter any more '
And she doesn't.
It just hit me the other day. Why am I beating myself up over this girl I couldn't stand 50% of the time? I wasn't happy when I was around her. I mean that says it all. I guess, I'm just guilty of feeling sorry for myself because...what else did I have to do? I needed to have my heartbroken to prove to myself that I still feel things for people and that I can still care for someone. Point proven, now it's time to get on with it. I hope she's happy doing her thing. Really though. Hanging with smelly, lost boy looking, punks, staying out until dawn, and drinking her ass off. She always said she hated that shit, but then again when someone is in a relationship they say a lot of shit they don't mean.
All I do is smile now. I know great things are on the horizon and the dark days are behind me. I'm very excited to reinvent myself. Detached from everything/everyone I once knew, this a new beginning. Change. I'm really digging it and I can't wipe this smile off of my face. Fuckin' ear to ear.
'There's no use in me a-cryin'
I've done everything and now I'm sick of trying
I've thrown away my nights, and wasted all my days over you
Now you go your way baby and I'll go mine
Now and forever 'till the end of time
And I'll find somebody new and baby
We'll say we're through and you won't matter any more '
And she doesn't.
It just hit me the other day. Why am I beating myself up over this girl I couldn't stand 50% of the time? I wasn't happy when I was around her. I mean that says it all. I guess, I'm just guilty of feeling sorry for myself because...what else did I have to do? I needed to have my heartbroken to prove to myself that I still feel things for people and that I can still care for someone. Point proven, now it's time to get on with it. I hope she's happy doing her thing. Really though. Hanging with smelly, lost boy looking, punks, staying out until dawn, and drinking her ass off. She always said she hated that shit, but then again when someone is in a relationship they say a lot of shit they don't mean.
All I do is smile now. I know great things are on the horizon and the dark days are behind me. I'm very excited to reinvent myself. Detached from everything/everyone I once knew, this a new beginning. Change. I'm really digging it and I can't wipe this smile off of my face. Fuckin' ear to ear.