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Gawd I'm just feeling so bluesey today.
I went with B this morning out to her mom's cause her grandparents are in town. They're so nice. Man her grandpa is a riot. He was sitting there calling me something in Cree and finally B says: "he's calling you a crazy white woman!" Ha! If he was serious I'd have told him where he could shove it but he was just ribbing me. B's family are all part of the tribe and all so it's been cool being exposed to that without being treated like an ignorant white girl.
I got a package from my dad today. He sent a couple of movie novelizations (yeah still scratching my head at that one), a Dragonology calendar which I put up in Monk's room for him, this gorgeously cute frog ornament he obviously picked up in Leavenworth and a shirt... trouble with the shirt is... he's already bought me the same shirt. LOL Getting a bit forgetful in his old age methinks. It was nice though. I'm glad he thinks of me. I also got my Xmas card from my grama too. She sent money which she apologized for saying it's impersonal and while it is and I always LOOOVE when they find me frog stuff this let's us buy a big family gift. I'm leaning towards a new TV cause when I told Jaundice we should just buy an XBox360 he said no cause it's supposed to be for all of us. Granted I'd never touch the thing but seeing him and the kids enjoying it would really be a good thing in my eyes. Especially since I can't buy that for them myself.
I got a few Xmas cards out. And I'm working on laundry. But I'm feeling depressed. One of Jaundice's co-workers that I really like stopped by the other night and we chatted for a while. I thought it was nice we got to talk cause she's one of the only ones I think is worth socializing with. But then Jaun comes home last night and said "yeah [insert name here] said you opened up to her like she was Barbara Walters..." my mouth dropped open in shock. All I had done was make conversation about family, our kids, her kids, their workplace, the holidays and such. It was just so weird that she would say that. I'll be honest it really, really hurt my feelings. It takes a lot to really hurt them but when you do it it really blows my trust and my respect. I'm so bummed.
Then there's mom. Mom is starting to stress me out really bad again. Apparently she's got feelings for an old friend of hers that I know. I think it's great in a way because I always liked the guy. He was one of her few guy friends that was ever realy nice to me and my brother. Thing is... Mom's still married. She knows how I feel about fooling around with another guy when you're married. Yeah she's getting a divorce but she hasn't told assbag that yet. She has to work her financial shit out before she can do that.
Well anyways I'm depressed, sick of all the rushing around, all the fighting with Jaundice, stressing the holidays and dealing with my mom's problems. I'm just one woman. If I weren't trying to do so much right now I'd be half tempted to curl up on the couch and watch a movie. Oh so very tempting but I'm staring at unwritten Xmas cards, unfolded laundry and I know there are chores in the bathroom and a kitchen floor that needs scrubbing.
Hope everyone else is doing alright and that I don't sound like too much of a whiner I just needed to blow off some steam before the pressure made me sick.
I went with B this morning out to her mom's cause her grandparents are in town. They're so nice. Man her grandpa is a riot. He was sitting there calling me something in Cree and finally B says: "he's calling you a crazy white woman!" Ha! If he was serious I'd have told him where he could shove it but he was just ribbing me. B's family are all part of the tribe and all so it's been cool being exposed to that without being treated like an ignorant white girl.
I got a package from my dad today. He sent a couple of movie novelizations (yeah still scratching my head at that one), a Dragonology calendar which I put up in Monk's room for him, this gorgeously cute frog ornament he obviously picked up in Leavenworth and a shirt... trouble with the shirt is... he's already bought me the same shirt. LOL Getting a bit forgetful in his old age methinks. It was nice though. I'm glad he thinks of me. I also got my Xmas card from my grama too. She sent money which she apologized for saying it's impersonal and while it is and I always LOOOVE when they find me frog stuff this let's us buy a big family gift. I'm leaning towards a new TV cause when I told Jaundice we should just buy an XBox360 he said no cause it's supposed to be for all of us. Granted I'd never touch the thing but seeing him and the kids enjoying it would really be a good thing in my eyes. Especially since I can't buy that for them myself.
I got a few Xmas cards out. And I'm working on laundry. But I'm feeling depressed. One of Jaundice's co-workers that I really like stopped by the other night and we chatted for a while. I thought it was nice we got to talk cause she's one of the only ones I think is worth socializing with. But then Jaun comes home last night and said "yeah [insert name here] said you opened up to her like she was Barbara Walters..." my mouth dropped open in shock. All I had done was make conversation about family, our kids, her kids, their workplace, the holidays and such. It was just so weird that she would say that. I'll be honest it really, really hurt my feelings. It takes a lot to really hurt them but when you do it it really blows my trust and my respect. I'm so bummed.
Then there's mom. Mom is starting to stress me out really bad again. Apparently she's got feelings for an old friend of hers that I know. I think it's great in a way because I always liked the guy. He was one of her few guy friends that was ever realy nice to me and my brother. Thing is... Mom's still married. She knows how I feel about fooling around with another guy when you're married. Yeah she's getting a divorce but she hasn't told assbag that yet. She has to work her financial shit out before she can do that.
Well anyways I'm depressed, sick of all the rushing around, all the fighting with Jaundice, stressing the holidays and dealing with my mom's problems. I'm just one woman. If I weren't trying to do so much right now I'd be half tempted to curl up on the couch and watch a movie. Oh so very tempting but I'm staring at unwritten Xmas cards, unfolded laundry and I know there are chores in the bathroom and a kitchen floor that needs scrubbing.
Hope everyone else is doing alright and that I don't sound like too much of a whiner I just needed to blow off some steam before the pressure made me sick.