Never Sure Anymore.
I can't seem to get a fix on what I want anymore. It seems to change, day to day, moment to moment. Some things seem to give me a sort of grim satisfaction, but nothing more. I have these feelings that are so strong they're overpowering one day, and the next they're close to nonexistent. But everything feels wrong, nothing feels right. Something looks, feels, and sounds right, but there's still something, some little thing that doesn't seem right. I'm just not sure of what I'm trying to accomplish. I have no idea anymore. Things that feel right I'm not sure are right. For anyone but me. Maybe I'm just seeing what I want, feeling what I want. People might not see things the same way. I wish someone could turn around and give me some sort of "magic" answer, but I know it doesn't work that way. That would be nice, though.
And I'm still really tense, cuz everything's sitting still. Nothing's happening. Everything's building. There's been so much change in the recent past, but not enough. Everything feels like it's sitting on a precipice. Just sitting, waiting. Is anyone else getting this feeling? Or am I going nuts?
I need to fall. I need more change. I need something to happen. What it is I don't know, but something needs to happen. I need change, more change. I'm waiting.
And I'm still really tense, cuz everything's sitting still. Nothing's happening. Everything's building. There's been so much change in the recent past, but not enough. Everything feels like it's sitting on a precipice. Just sitting, waiting. Is anyone else getting this feeling? Or am I going nuts?
I need to fall. I need more change. I need something to happen. What it is I don't know, but something needs to happen. I need change, more change. I'm waiting.