<(*LIFE*)>
My mother:
1.)Let me leave when ever I wanted to
2.)Come back as late as I wanted to
3.)Didn't care if I did drugs
4.)Wouldn't mind if I stayed at a frineds house for 2-3 day
My Dad:
1.)allways put me down
2.)Never a word of encouragement
3.)Never showed me any true love
4.)Allways made fun of my faults,looks,intelligence,attitude,etc.,etc.
So you see. My mother and father may have been there most my life,but at the same time they where never really there. In essence I grew up ALONE. My brother as well never really liked me till I was about maybe 16 or so. Even when I was at school everyone there there basiclly did to me what my dad did. Ridaculed me about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING they could. That happened from like elementry to high school, and when I lashed out back at them the teacher or some sort of athority figure saw that. So it was kept in file. Then by the time I got to high school I had a record and they figured I was one of the "Special kids". I was stuck in "special ed" from the last of Junior high to high school. I never really learned anything do to my never ending torture from the kids around me. I got all the way to junior high school with only an elementry education. So you can see where alot of my problems come into play now that I am older. The only reason I ot past elementry i cause my father talked to the school board and had them pass me on to the next level of schooling. So needless to say all of this has FUCKED MY LIFE UP COMPLETELY...I may be a happy person, but it is only skin deep.
1.)Let me leave when ever I wanted to
2.)Come back as late as I wanted to
3.)Didn't care if I did drugs
4.)Wouldn't mind if I stayed at a frineds house for 2-3 day
My Dad:
1.)allways put me down
2.)Never a word of encouragement
3.)Never showed me any true love
4.)Allways made fun of my faults,looks,intelligence,attitude,etc.,etc.
So you see. My mother and father may have been there most my life,but at the same time they where never really there. In essence I grew up ALONE. My brother as well never really liked me till I was about maybe 16 or so. Even when I was at school everyone there there basiclly did to me what my dad did. Ridaculed me about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING they could. That happened from like elementry to high school, and when I lashed out back at them the teacher or some sort of athority figure saw that. So it was kept in file. Then by the time I got to high school I had a record and they figured I was one of the "Special kids". I was stuck in "special ed" from the last of Junior high to high school. I never really learned anything do to my never ending torture from the kids around me. I got all the way to junior high school with only an elementry education. So you can see where alot of my problems come into play now that I am older. The only reason I ot past elementry i cause my father talked to the school board and had them pass me on to the next level of schooling. So needless to say all of this has FUCKED MY LIFE UP COMPLETELY...I may be a happy person, but it is only skin deep.