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Losing my mind again. Got kicked out of school. Caring less and less about work...almost quit due to business partner treating everyone like shit. Blew up at a friend earlier, was totally uncalled for on my part. Can't talk to Jason about him finding a job because he never asked me to get a job or do anything when I wasn't working while he was...I have no right to ask him. Trying to cover all finances by myself isn't working.
I want my blades. Bought a new pack of them a couple of weeks ago...haven't used them yet. Came very close to it tonight. Still feel like giving in to the urges.
So tired of all the stress. Tired of hearing the same things over and over again from the few people left in my life. I know I need to take things one step at a time. I know I need to focus on now, not what could be coming up. I was hoping this would be the start of good things.
So stressed. Body aches, head hurts almost daily, can't really eat...feel ill a lot. Too much fucking stress!!!
I want my blades. Bought a new pack of them a couple of weeks ago...haven't used them yet. Came very close to it tonight. Still feel like giving in to the urges.
So tired of all the stress. Tired of hearing the same things over and over again from the few people left in my life. I know I need to take things one step at a time. I know I need to focus on now, not what could be coming up. I was hoping this would be the start of good things.
So stressed. Body aches, head hurts almost daily, can't really eat...feel ill a lot. Too much fucking stress!!!