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I'm still not good.
I'm sorry to those of you who have been trying to contact me but have gotten nothing. I'm also sorry to those of you who have been let down because of my distance and issues. I'm trying to deal with everything, but things just keep getting worse.
Not only am I trying to help friends in various ways, dealing with old issues I thought I'd put to rest, having to face the ravages of age with a family member I haven't talked to in years who now wants to see me (I could barely handle talking to her on the phone, I don't know if I can keep myself together to see her), dealing with my worries/fears/anxieties about driving, getting a job, and my GED, trying to help Jason, but now I've got to try to help my brother out of a really bad situation.
He's getting kicked out of the place he's been living since mom kicked him out at the end of next month. Mom, being the cunt that she is, won't let him move back in with her. I don't know what to do for him. He can't stay here with us, Jason and I still live with his mom. Most of my friends live with their parents.
I'm not sure if I can deal with much more without this crash getting worse, or without breaking my 7-8 months of not going after myself with sharp objects.
I'm sorry to those of you who have been trying to contact me but have gotten nothing. I'm also sorry to those of you who have been let down because of my distance and issues. I'm trying to deal with everything, but things just keep getting worse.
Not only am I trying to help friends in various ways, dealing with old issues I thought I'd put to rest, having to face the ravages of age with a family member I haven't talked to in years who now wants to see me (I could barely handle talking to her on the phone, I don't know if I can keep myself together to see her), dealing with my worries/fears/anxieties about driving, getting a job, and my GED, trying to help Jason, but now I've got to try to help my brother out of a really bad situation.
He's getting kicked out of the place he's been living since mom kicked him out at the end of next month. Mom, being the cunt that she is, won't let him move back in with her. I don't know what to do for him. He can't stay here with us, Jason and I still live with his mom. Most of my friends live with their parents.
I'm not sure if I can deal with much more without this crash getting worse, or without breaking my 7-8 months of not going after myself with sharp objects.