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Right now I am wearing gray fitted sweat pants and a long sleeved, very comfortable, heather-brown cotton long-sleeved shirt. It would be one of my favorite outfits because it is very at-home yet attractive, but the shirt is Wes'. I debated when I put it on, but I decided "screw you," the shirt was given to me and I'll wear it if I damn well want to.
Training is supposed to start for my Kaplan job once I turn in my I-9 Form, but I turned it in on Friday and haven't heard anything yet. I realize its a holiday weekend, but I am anxious to have it begin.
Ian wants me to call the chef that he spoke to about me, the one that is on the Food Network and knows Bobby Flay and Mario Batali. Its a great opportunity, but I've been avoiding it and been kind of angry about it... I want to pursue it, but I don't want to solidify anything that nails down where I will be 5 months from now: and it is frustrating that I find having the ability to move in a few months more important than such an incredible opportunity to pursue cooking! I believe Westley and I can be something amazing but I wish I could be sure... or that things were just a little less amazing before all this nonsense happened. If it wasn't so good and I wasn't so happy before, then I wouldn't have valid hope for after basic has passed.
I want to write in my journal but I'm just not feeling it and am not writing coherently, so this is all I've got for now.
Training is supposed to start for my Kaplan job once I turn in my I-9 Form, but I turned it in on Friday and haven't heard anything yet. I realize its a holiday weekend, but I am anxious to have it begin.
Ian wants me to call the chef that he spoke to about me, the one that is on the Food Network and knows Bobby Flay and Mario Batali. Its a great opportunity, but I've been avoiding it and been kind of angry about it... I want to pursue it, but I don't want to solidify anything that nails down where I will be 5 months from now: and it is frustrating that I find having the ability to move in a few months more important than such an incredible opportunity to pursue cooking! I believe Westley and I can be something amazing but I wish I could be sure... or that things were just a little less amazing before all this nonsense happened. If it wasn't so good and I wasn't so happy before, then I wouldn't have valid hope for after basic has passed.
I want to write in my journal but I'm just not feeling it and am not writing coherently, so this is all I've got for now.